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2011-07-28T19:48:00.003+08:00

她就在你身边，却总是想着别人，这是最遥远的爱情
明知道他不爱妳，妳还是爱他，这是最孤独的爱情
有人爱你，你却不爱她，这是最沉重的爱情
有人爱妳，妳却不敢爱他，这是最压抑的爱情
无法确定他会不会爱上你，就先付出，这是最勇敢的爱情
不管她爱不爱你，都决定要爱她，这是最宽容的爱情
得不到她的爱，就收回你的，这是最怕受伤的爱情
因为失去，才想拥有的爱，这是最后知后觉的爱情

－－《摩登新人类》

4/4/11

2011-04-04T17:55:00.005+08:00

back from taiwan for about a week.. slacked till now.. haha... anyway.... taiwan trip was SUPERB!!!! slow and steady pace... no rush... everyday have destinations to go and have fun... sightseeing and shopping.. plus LOTS of eating (and of course i grew fatter from it T.T)... asked my cousin out as well... went to walk his school's basketball match.... loads of stuff.. hmm... this is my 1st trip on my own... as in without adults... a sole trip planned and enjoyed on my own (of course with my 2nd sis too)... an unique experience seriously.. well one definite thing is getting lost (or rather wrongly directed).... haha... if not in a rush getting lost quite good too... cause there's one night we some sort of got lost so we walked a VERY, EXTREMELY long distance to get to the metro station.. i quite enjoyed it... cause weather is cooling... haha.. but my sis was complaining... oh about the weather... i should say generally is great except for the 2 days of han2 liu2... freezing cold that once step outdoor my body started trembling uncontrollably.... the rest of the days were fine... hmm.. food was great of course.... shopping was alright for me but my sis say not enough.. sightseeing not bad... all in all it was a GREAT trip.. hope i can have another one soon =D... and oh! THANKS daddy for sending me home from airport when we came back =D

P.S. all the photos are up in my album (link under my profile)

P.S. P.S. currently jobless howz.....

4/3/11

2011-03-04T20:04:00.003+08:00

当我领到成绩单时，心里半分兴奋都没有，只有满满的不安。因为潜意识里似乎明白，成绩并不会理想。
看着手上糟糕的成绩，再看见好友对着她的成绩单喜极而泣，我领悟到至理名言并非纸上谈兵。因为那一刻，我深深体会何为“一份耕耘，一份收获”。
眼眶强忍的泪水、嘴角的强颜欢笑，都无法掩盖心里的沉重与担忧。我真的，重重地摔了一跤。
在独自发泄，心情也渐渐沉淀后，今天出门的情景浮现脑海中。。。
刚从家里出发不到五分钟，天空就瞬间下起倾盆大雨。好不容易找到避雨处期望雨势能暂缓，但雨水仍像关不了的水龙头，来势汹汹。当我下定决心，正冒着雨跑向巴士站时，雨又突然停了。。。
坐在巴士座位看着书，翻了页面发现标题写着：“要一直往前走噢：擦掉眼泪，继续往前，逃避只会让痛苦更扩大”。然后，下一章的内容恰巧又写着：“很多人遇到挫折，就会想逃跑；或者是拼命忘记它，假装它根本没发生。你要学会摸摸它，不要害怕它，因为只有好好摸过挫折的人，才会越来越棒！”。。。
现在回想起来，中午发生这一连串莫名其妙却不约而同的巧合，似乎是为了过后领成绩所埋下的伏笔。它们像是在告诉我：雨过，天就晴了。

19/2/11

2011-02-19T18:37:00.002+08:00

an update after ONE MONTH!!!! haha... kk.. been rather busy... cause mid jan started job training and recently went into operations.... so everyday busy and tired.. plus chinese new year and my birthday... so for this one month my life was eventful... haha... anyway.. hmmm where to start... ok.. lets start with chinese new year then... this year never go back malaysia cause no car back XP... and then first 2 days of chinese new year were spent at home with my sis, cousin and his friends on the mahjong table... dont be surprised... its truw.. 2 whole days of nothing but mahjong.. of course we did have intervals for mealtimes and sleep time... after that i started going ppl house bai nian.... went to zhan peng, krist, lin, zhou lao shi, ronald and paul house... and as usual.. it is during these times that all the "long lost friends" gather.. hahha.. as in friends that dont see often.. so managed to meet up with quite alot ppl... thats about it for new year.. my birthday nothing much actually.. cause happen to be during new year... and also many friends busy.. so didnt actually celebrate much... went out for one dinner only... but anyway.. still.. thanks to ALL the friends that have given me their wishes.. and of course the presents... i will try my best to use them XP... lastly... hmmm.. work... cause quite confidential so i shall not mention much... what i can say is... my colleagues from the training class are a bunch of funny ppl... maybe because we are of the same age or just 2-4 years older... thats why it is easy to click... operations was rather scary at first.. cause very lost.. but now kind of get used to it already... so should be alright.. anyway... next week i will chiong ot.. haha...

P.S. have been thinking of writing but did not seem to have any inspirations lately.. think my skills deteriorated...

18/1/11

2011-01-18T20:33:00.002+08:00

FIRST POST OF THE YEAR!!! haha a bit too late and far from the previous (no choice too lazy ah XP)... anyway... after slacking for 2 weeks I FINALLY START WORK AND NIGHT COURSE!!!! haha... so chaotic.. slack then slack till can rot and mould.. start then start till schedule fully packed... anyway today's my first day of on-job training... zzz.. i should say IT'S DISASTROUS!! cause my agent NEVER inform me ANYTHING (aside from the info on the contract) and never get back to me when i called yesterday and she was unavailable.. then when i called after my first night course she off work liao.. ZZZZ.. so today morning i report to work NOT KNOWING WHAT TIME TO REPORT WHERE TO REPORT AND WHO TO REPORT TO!!!! URGH!! in the end.. made alot of attempts in vain and detours etc etc.. so i end up reporting to my training venue late =.= .. but luckily i saw someone familiar from the interview so at least got company.. other than this everything else's fine.. the trainer is very nice.. but quite alot of info to absorb... anyway i started my night umpire course yesterday.. haha... so now i'll be busy going to work in the day and the courses at night.. BUSY

25/12/10

2010-12-25T17:19:00.004+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!
haha.. just woke up about 2 hours ago... yesterday went to chalet to celebrate christmas.. for the first time of all the bbq.. i get to sit down and not do anything.. just wait to be served and eat.. haha.. shuang... anyway.. we played and chatted plus watch a movie.. i kept dozing off in the cinema cause really too tired.. didnt plan to stay overnight at first but agreed upon request (plus coercion)... but its SUPER fun.. never see some of my seniors and friends for half a year le.. and it's been a long time since we sat down and bond together.. haha... played games as well... polar bear =.= (with the PS from CE =.=).. was awake till about 6am then cab home.. slept throughout the cab trip and died out on bed....

my xmas present from the gift exchange (happened to be from krist so i put our photo in =D)

YAY!!! the kids' camp finally ended!!! phew! seriously.. the energy level of the kids is really hard to keep up with.. esp we had a 3-day-2-night camp... wah... everyday all the facilitators super tired.. and we all tried to escape into our refuge room (aka the operating room) as often as we can... haha... i think cause the whole camp we planned it so weeks of work followed by executing it drained our energy... but the kids are cute la.. and seeing their joy makes our effort worthwhile.. sense of satisfaction... (even though we grumble alot in the process haha)...

lastly.. i realised ever since 23rd nov (which is the 1st day after my 2nd last paper).. i've been busy.. everyday have program... and everyday wake up early.. think the latest i woke up was 8am.. so for about one month i havent sleep until natural wake... zzz... luckily ALL my work, camp, planning, competition etc etc ended.. so... I AM FREE NOW!!!! all i do now is go for interviews and hopefully i can get a regular work for next year (for some weird reason i feel very insecure without a job)... right here i have to apologise to all my friends for the unsuccessful attempts in asking me out... BUT! since now i'm free (or at least will be till end of this year)... i'll be able to make it for nearly all invitations =D

14/12/10

2010-12-14T10:43:00.004+08:00

came back from my port dickson trip... went to play competition.. all 4 singapore teams got a medal and mine a bronze.. so well done... haha.. anyway... i took some pictures...

busy recently with camp and work.. and also applying for jobs... zzz... need to find time to pack my room and clear away stuff.. as well as looking into scholarship applications... zzz.. BUSY

4/12/10

2010-12-04T18:06:00.002+08:00

YAY!!!! my first 2 jobs are OVER!!!! haha.... actually i'm MOST happy for persevering through the 1st job at sitex 2010... that is really one of my worst... so ending it was a REAL relief... sports school one was quite slack and relaxing... cause just have to help out dave in the preparation and running the competition itself... not much trouble... quite easy to handle... most importantly i like my boss... haha.... anyway i prefer to work under a boss who tells me what he wants to see in the end and let me handle it my own way rather than dictating every step i take... so sports school iysc was good... only bad thing is i'll prbably grow fatter cause there's too much food =.= ....

recently VERY tired.. cause havent been sleeping enough especially during sitex.. everyday wake up early and reaching home late... fatigue brings down immune system so i just recovered from sore throat and now having slight flu.. zzz... tmr have to wake up early AGAIN cause have to go back malaysia for my grandma's birthday....

december's a SUPER BUSY month for me cause my schedule is PACKED with part time jobs, organising and conducting a camp plus one table tennis trip overseas.. oh ya.. and ALOT of gatherings and catching-up... so i guess i need to start planning my schedule for next year....

P.S. LOOKING FORWARD TO MY TAIWAN TRIP NEXT YEAR (WHICH HASNT BEEN PLANNED OUT YET XP)

26/11/10

2010-11-26T00:02:00.001+08:00

just came back from work at sitex.. main purpose is to FA1 LAO2 SAO1!!!!! LOUSY DEPLOY!!! LOUSY PAY!!! LOUSY JOB!!!! worst i've ever done.. but sadly i have no choice cause it's either this or i'm jobless.. zzz. forget it.. just bear for 2 more days.. =.=

16/11/10

2010-11-16T18:20:00.003+08:00

最近迷上了一部新剧，剧名是《死神少女》。很有趣的题材、很动人心弦的内容，一篇篇讲述青少年面临各种困境的故事，真的值得一看。

“我是渡，永遠的19歲，奈何橋的守護者，非生非死，無善無惡。
所有「過不去」而呼喚死亡的聲音，都可能召喚我──
死神少女總是笑著說：「我最喜歡”過不去”的靈魂了，來變成一顆石頭，幫我支撐奈何橋吧。」
面對生存困境、生死抉擇，
如果你選擇「渡過」，死神少女就會消失，
如果你還是「渡不過」，死神少女會幫助你完成願望，
但你，將會變成「奈何橋」下的一顆石頭，
永遠忍受地獄之河的沖刷，支撐別人安然渡過。”
－－《死神少女》官方网站

和我聊过天的朋友可能会发现，我常把死亡挂在嘴边，但别担心，我没有轻生的念头，只是会忍不住去联想，甚至幻想与死亡有关的事情。

死亡，人生必经的过程，差别只在于早与晚。
死亡，有轻如鸿毛、重如泰山，但最重要的是，是否后悔人间走一回？
死亡，象征人生如过眼云烟，来去匆匆，到了尽头一切回归原点。
死亡，是适时的当头棒喝，质生命应否如此钻牛角尖、难以释怀？
死亡，无需害怕、忌讳，只要坦然面对，一切将会顺应自然规律，有其善终。

12/11/10

2010-11-12T21:12:00.002+08:00

YAY!!! THE TOUGHEST WEEK OF A LEVEL IS OVER!!!! haha.. i'm like half relaxed now.. cause for the next three weeks i only have total of 5 papers.. and they're all less heavy.. how did i do??? hmm.. math's fine (i hope)... chem's disastrous (cause i picked difficult questions and left the easiest one undone =.=)... bio's alright but i'm not confident of my answers.. as for gp.. all i can say is pray hard.. zzz.. sounds horrible... but wellzz... what's done cannot be undone so let's not dwell upon it... some stupid things i did recently.. i left my jacket in the exam hall and didnt realise it AT ALL until i return the following day for the next paper and realise my jacket wasnt in my bag... looked around my desk but nothing.. luckily i finally saw it hanging on a stack of chairs at a corner.. so jacket retrieved =D.. another stupid thing today.. i scald my back.. so it's a patch of red with blisters now.. ZZZ =.=

15/10/10

2010-10-15T21:08:00.003+08:00

TODAY IS THE LAST OFFICIAL SCHOOL DAY IN NJC!!! YAY!!!! haha finally the day has come... anyway today's our farewell assembly so didnt have class.. just some admin staff and video and speeches... didnt take alot of photos cause i was in a rush for my mock test... sry 6e ppl i missed the phototaking... next week onwards will be shiong mugging for a levels... JIA YOU!!!

mr nah bought us donuts in one of our last bio lessons XP

pm ms wu's gift for me for being class rep =D

haha van and krist made for me cakes ^.^

something i saw in the presentation that i liked alot:

"Only as high as I reach can I grow;
Only as far as I seek can I go;
Only as deep as I look can I see;
Only as much as I dream can I be"
--Kaven Ravn

12/10/10

2010-10-12T19:32:00.002+08:00

just went back to ssp for their grad ceremony.. also to see teachers.. realise whenever i'm back there i feel relaxed and happy.. really glad i made the time today.. saw some of my teachers (a pity zhou lao shi wasnt there and mr chew left early)... ms kelly, zhan peng, lai lao shi, mr lau, mr mak etc etc... their encouragements and faiths in me to do well for a levels really gave me confidence... mr lau gave me some tips as usual and said he trusts that i will do well... mr mak said its alright i dont have faith in myself because he does.. ms kelly said i'll be fine as long as i dont miss out questions haha.. zhan peng as usual joked alot and all these liven up my spirits... really thank them for their confidence in me, care and support... also chatted with alot other teachers and staffs.. really feel the friendly atmosphere there... now i feel happy and ready to take on the challenge! =D

10/10/10

2010-10-10T21:18:00.002+08:00

oh today is 10/10/10 auspicious day... just being random.. nvm.. next week is the last official school week.. after that will be study break which marks the start of my 1st mugger life (hope i really do it)... 3 study weeks and it's a levels!!! GAMBATEI!!

present i got for my sis' birthday.. just arrived 2 days ago =.=

daddy caught this and gave it to me.. very familiar character.. hmm..

29/9/10

2010-09-29T21:05:00.002+08:00

busy and stressed prelims passed... gotten back the papers and grades... how should i say... grades sound very good... but i still think it sucks.. and the fact that i have never scored an A for any single subject starting from day 1 in nj makes it worse... zzz.. guess the only thing i can be glad of is that i am officially (sooner or later once they looked into it) out of the blacklist since i screwed up my common test.. from now.. have to pick up the momentum and start to chiong towards a levels.. just one question i have been pondering (and pls advice me is you may).... should i 'dismantle' my computer (to avoid distraction) from now on or should i bet on my discipline??? hmmm...

Prelim Results:
General Paper - 49 (E)
General Studies in Chinese - 64 (B)
Mathematics - 63 (B)
Biology - 63 (B)
Chemistry - 45 (E)

18/9/10

2010-09-18T20:46:00.002+08:00

有句话常说：“戏如人生，人生如戏”。
若真如此，我的人生又在上演着哪一出戏？
是浪漫美丽的偶像剧？还是丑陋不堪的现代剧？
是单纯快乐的青春剧？还是尔虞我诈的宫廷剧？
无论是哪一种，千万别是荒谬可笑的闹剧。。。

最近喜欢上的歌词：

“我想要一个乱了数字的时钟　我想做一个完全相反的我
我在这个世界拼命些什么　累死我”　－《相反的我》

“像轮胎用了太久　没气了所以　原谅我想消失几周
每个人都在选好的轨道奔走　讲真的我想要呼救”　－《相反的我》

“蝴蝶眨几次眼睛　才学会飞行
夜空洒满了星星　但几颗会落地
我飞行　但你坠落之际
很靠近　还听见呼吸
对不起　我却没捉紧你”　－　《你不知道的事》

17/9/10

2010-09-17T21:25:00.002+08:00

PRELIMS IS FINALLY OVER!!! YAY!!!! YOOHOO!!!!! haha.. well i studied for it so hopefully results wont be too bad... though towards the end which is these few days i lost the momentum and slacked... hmm life's normal... went to paul's house to stayover for our 'study camp' again during hols last week... stayed longer though.. 4-days-3-nights... quite productive haha.. and must thank paul's mum and sis for preparing food and bringing us out for meals.. REAL THANKS! have 5 days of exam break starting from tmr since i finished my last paper today... sun will be going out with my sis then to aunt's house for dinner.. the rest of the 4 days.. hmm how should i spent it??? anyone wants to ask me out?? haha

25/8/10

2010-08-25T23:23:00.003+08:00

went for lin's birthday celebration last sat at kokhong's house.. steamboat as usual.. had a fun time cause of the jokers around.. haha... oh! i made lin's present.. and it's the most elaborate design i've ever done... it's 2011 photo calender by the way...

oh! mon i went to indoor stadium to watch the table tennis singles finals where isabelle played!!! haha... krist and i went together.. thanks alot for getting the tickets for me =D... anyway isabelle played really well even though she lost... a great match and i saw brilliant display of sportsmanship.. hen2 you3 da4 jiang4 zhi1 feng1... great job girl!!!!

been slacking alot lately.. zzz... =.= from last sat until today never do any homework.. zzz... slacker.. prelims is next week =.= =.= =.=

17/8/10

2010-08-17T16:54:00.002+08:00

it's been soooooooo loooooonnnnnnnnnnngggggggg since i blogged again.. haha... lets just mention some major events that i remember.. hmmm...

over the national day long weekend i FINALLY stayed over at paul's house.. but to study of course zzz.. anyway i stayed over for 3-days-2-nights... everyday except for eating bathing and sleeping we are studying / doing work... sounds very productive but actually it's not.. hhaa... at intervals we talk and ate fingerfoods.. so hmm... productivity drops.. esp the last day at his house.. cause it's national day itself so there's alot of channels available.. and probably because we mugged quite intensely the previous 2 days so last day quite tired and distracted already... anyway... it was fun staying over at his house haha.. cause his sister's very nice.. and also i get to wake paul early in the morning for breakfast haha... thanks paul...

last tuesday 4 of us finally managed to meet up for a meal.. the 4 meaning des paul fai and i.. went to town.. usual walked and eat and chat... simple and ordinary thing but just enjoyable and satisfying... always worth making time out for great friends.. anyway dinner was jap food.. not too bad not too good either... then had ice cream for dessert.. haha... chatted alot throughout.. mainly teasing fai.. as usual.. haha... then talked about entrepreneur ideas (wow so sophisticated).. of course i listened most of the time... and oh! on the way back our main conversation topic was our views on relationships esp love... seems des paul and i have common stand and fai the weird one... then 3 of us tried to "talk some sense into her" but as usual she is firm with her view...

the sat that just passed was our family gathering day.. cause rarely ALL of us are around and available so we had a dinner at er gu's house... 15 of us in total... big number haha... xin gor and i arrived last cause we went for muay thai training... oh side track a bit.. it was my 1st official muay thai training in singapore.. SUPER INTENSE AND PHYSICALLY-TESTING!!! just warm-ups i already cmi le... cant even last for 10min well.. then training was like RIGOROUS!!! and xin gor still day quite relax that there already.. zzz i think i'm going to die in training.. hhaa but it was fun.. and painful =.= ... ok back to dinner topic... had a mixture of home-cooked and outside food.. quite a feast.. of course we chatted throughout.. some little updates here and there.. oh both my da jie and er jie boyfriends are there as well... so more topics to dwell on.. hhaa.. then fruits and tv time.. xin gor suggested we have a night out since so nan2 de2 all cousins are together.. so we went to jurong safra for kbox... haha.. opened a glass of wine... i drank a cup as well.. and we sang... from like 10pm to about 3am... conclusion from this "outing" is that i'm THE WEIRD ONE from the family cause i am totally not musically inclined... my sisters and cousins all can sing very well.. only i'm the tone deaf... i'm like totally yin1 yue1 jue2 yuan2 ti3.. haha... and of course whenever i sing they laughed like mad.. so that night i was the entertainer =.= ... oh surprisingly jia and xin gor sings super well... my 1st time hearing them sing.. so now we have 4 good singers in the house: da jie, her bf, xin gor and jia... I'M TONE DEAF.... =.= =.= =.=

6/8/10

2010-08-06T20:35:00.003+08:00

went out with acad on wed night... alot ppl went.. seniors and our batch... weichen, huimin and her boyfriend, zena, janice, huilin, melcas, kokhong, cody, chuanen and his girlfriend... went to eat at cine... then walk to scape camp pong.. 1st time i know there's a place like this.. it's like a pub with bar and drinks but rents out table tennis tables and rackets.. the whole ambiance also like a pub.. dim lights and music.. haha.. anyway we rented 2 rackets and a table for an hour.. so funny and ironic... a bunch of table tennis players, some even national and international, rent a table for leisure play.. anyway cause our table is right at the center and in front of the bar... many people exp the shopkeepers were looking at us play.. of course its also because we are a bit high profile.. as in even at leisure play we still look very pro i guess.. anyway.. cause of this we managed to get 2 free rackets cause the shopkeepers heard us saying we want to play doubles so they lend us 2 extra rackets without charging.. haha how nice.. it was fun lor.. going out with them.. really gave me momentary break from all the stress and school work.. haha..

today went to kris house after national day celebrations.. diverge abit here.. nj celebrations is really ZZZ.... anyway we went her house bake brownie and cookies.. turned out quite nice.. though i still prefer the brownie that kris made before.. cause this feels more like a cake than brownie.. but van says its supposed to be like this.. hmmm.... anyway starting tmr for 3-days-2-nights i'll be mugging =.= .... zzz... sianz...

30/7/10

2010-07-30T21:00:00.002+08:00

largest bruise i've ever had... a result of volleyball during pe lessons...

sianz sianz sianz.. life now is nothing but endless school work and studying... zzz.. 3 more months of this rigour.. hope i can keep up the momentum...

16/7/10

2010-07-16T22:44:00.004+08:00

just watched inception with daddy and vanessa... SIMPLY FASCINATING!!! i mean the idea... i really applaud the author/scriptwriter of this movie because the fact that he/she managed to come up with this idea is just amazing... and to go about with such details in it.. wow.. *speechless*... the idea of intruding into people's dreams... and peaking into deep secrets... and doing it as a team of specialists: the thief, the architect, the chemist, the forger, the tourist... dreams in a dream... stealing information.. planting ideas.... fascinating....

14/7/10

2010-07-14T20:55:00.003+08:00

I FINALLY GOTTEN BACK ALL MY COMMON TEST RESULTS!!! well.. what should i say.. in chinese: can3 bu4 ren2 du3... in english: unbearably miserable... BUT I MUST ADMIT I DESERVE IT SINCE I SLACKED FOR ~6 WEEKS WITHOUT STUDYING AND WENT TO TAKE THE TESTS STRAIGHT... =.= here are my terribly horrible results:

General Paper: 53.5 (D)
General Studies in Chinese: 57 (C)
Biology: 51 (D)
Chemistry: 30.4 (U)
Mathematics: 38 (U)

Resolution for the next 4 months or so: QUIT SLACKING & WORK HARD UNTIL I FEEL DEPRESSED!!!!

P.S.: Should I really hire myself a GP tutor??? Suggestions anyone???

5/7/10

2010-07-05T19:49:00.002+08:00

"Tuesdays with Morrie" - Mitch Albom

Tension of Opposites:

"Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing, but you are bound to do something else."

"A tension of opposites, like a pull on a rubber band. And most of us live somewhere in the middle."

Forgiveness:

"Forgive yourself before you die. Then forgive others."

"We...need to forgive ourselves...For all the things we didn't do. All the things we should have done. You can't get stuck on the regrets of what should have happened."

Material Things:

"Don't cling to things, because everything is impermanent."

Emotions:

"If you hold back on the emotions--if you don't allow yourself to go all the way through them--you can never get to being detached, you're too busy being afraid."

Dying and Living:

"When you learn how to die, you learn how to live."

"Don't let go too soon but, but don't hang on too long."

Shortsightedness:

"...no matter where you live, the biggest defect we human beings have is our shortsightedness. We don't see what we could be. We should be looking at our potential, stretching ourselves into everything we can become."

24/6/10

2010-06-24T17:08:00.008+08:00

just came back from thailand.. this time 5 of us went.. xin gor, aunt, cousin chi, er jie, myself... well how should i say.. it was a fun, fruitful yet disastrous trip... i shall do it day by day so this is going to be a looooonnnnnnnngggggggggg post....

DAY 1
havent even board the plane we met trouble (my aunt said it probably was a warning sign to cancel this trip after the big accident happened)... xin gor spelt chi's name on the ticket wrongly so she cannot board.. then we had to change the name via the ticketing company but we called like mad also nobody pick up... so we had to keep calling until i dont know when one of us finally got through.. so after much talk we changed the name on the ticket with a surcharge of S$130.... then we board the plane fly to thailand arrive at bangkok took the big cab waiting for us to pattaya... our destination was fairtex hotel pattaya.. it's not the usual hotel.. rather it's a sports and recreation hotel... so there's alot of facilities.. unpacked and had dinner.. then aunt, chi and er jie went shopping at nearby tesco.. i joined xin gor for the social muay thai.. my very first time with muay thai... so everything was new and fresh and interesting.. not vigorous since it's social lesson not training... xin gor asked if i was interested to take up muay thai and i said yes! hahaha.. cause it's really engaging.. and it can be my 'cca' now since i stopped table tennis... nothing much later.. supper and lights out...

DAY 2
morning started with muay thai training... i joined in training along xin gor... so i had an instructor to teach me basic boxing and kicking... then did rounds in the ring... after that did pad work (aka practice on punching bags).... tiring.. serious... not like social at all.. training is really tiring... and painful... haha... cause have to keep boxing and kicking... but luckily i'm only focused on the strokes first so didnt put in full strength.. if not i'll end up like xin gor with bruises all over the shin and bleeding knuckles.... anyway... after training i went shopping with the 3 other females (while xin gor go have his tattoo and return for afternoon training)... we went floating market.. beautiful place but nothing to buy and also quite expensive.. so we went to shopping mall after shopping mall along the way back to hotel... we walked between malls.. distance's abit far but bearable.. the intolerable part is the scorching sun... SUPER HOT!!!! anyway shopping nothing much... just a small incident... an ang mo had his eyes on me (by the way pattaya is a tourism attraction so there are more foreigners there then locals).. urgh.... sounds so er... anyway... here's what happened.. we were shopping... so the ang mo was also shopping... he smiled at me so i smiled back (form of courtesy).. he said sawadika and i sald hi back... then he said oh you speak english and i said ya.. he asked where i came from etc etc and so a conversation started... a short one though.. i thought ang mo are generally more friendly so nothing's wrong... then of course the convo ended and we left... later when we were leaving the ang mo saw us again... he approached me from the back and said hi and offered to shake hands so i shook (i dotn know how to describe but he really came from behind and near me so i was startled for a moment).. a short chat.. then he asked strange question like where is your room (he meant where do i stay though)... he also said he stayed at XXX hotel (didnt really listen to him when he said this) and was alone (according to my aunt who's the only one that catched this line).. i was stunned seriously.. the conversation seemed to go the wrong way or what... so we quickly left the mall and went to the next one... then my aunt told me she saw that ang mo coming also... so we decided to forgo that mall and go ahead... all's well after that... just that they kept joking and teasing me on this..

DAY 3
morning started with muay thai training again... more vigorous than before.. more painful as well.. cause during pad work one of the instructor correcting me showed xin gor and i techniques... some small moves that can win over opponents when being attacked or movements restricted... so i got dumped onto the floor n times.. the instructor controlled his actions already but it still hurts.. cause firstly i'm new so my stability's weak and also the pain cant be helped when you're thrown onto the floor... after training we went to the beach... xin gor told us there's 2 very fun and exciting activities we can do there.. of course i'm dead in for sure.. chi and er jie hesitated a little and my aunt was worried for them.. but in the end they decided to go and my aunt kept telling them to remain safe.. 1st activity was the parachute.. fun really.. but short.. a few minutes and we're down... 2nd activity was jet ski.. all's well for the fist 10mins.. we enjoyed the thrill and speed... but the 3 of us (chi, er jie and i) didnt go at super high speed like xin gor... THEN! BANG! i knocked into er jie!!!!! it all happened SUPER QUICKLY! i saw her and i turned but i think it was the wave so her whole jet ski moved in my direction and i knew that gosh that's it we're going to crash.. side track a bit.. now i really understand scenes on tv shows are not exaggerated... there's always the car accident scene where the person just stares at the car running towards him and he does nothing.. it's true really.. NOW I KNOW... that moment was just so quick and my mind went blank.. i had no reaction.. everything thing stopped at the point where i knew that i was going to run into her.. it didnt cross my mind at all that i could have pressed the stop button and shut the engine immediately to reduce the damage... so my jet ski ran into hers and she, being so light, flew off her jet ski and fell into the sea... luckily before starting i told her better be careful cause the life vest was too loose for her and she listened.. the moment she flew she hugged to her life vest tightly so she floated on the sea rather than drowning since she counldnt swim... then xin gor came over to check and quickly went back to shore to get help.. er jie's leg was bleeding non-stop so she was sent to hospital straight accompanied by my aunt while we stayed to settled the damage costs.. fortunately she only had superficial cuts and no severe injury done.. my jetski was scratched and a part of the fibre broke off.. er jie's jetski half sank into the sea cause water entered... the engines were soaked and totally spoilt.. the side broke.. had to pay.. initially the cost was B$330,000... after xin gor talked to them and left to get money... chi and i had to stay as 'hostages'... then after 2 hours my aunt came and negotiated with them.. she went through alot of trouble to draw out money cause the sum's too big... she only managed B$220,000 so we paid that amount.. my aunt said that these people prayed for accidents because then they can earn big profits... actually the amount we paid is also more than enough (meaning we got qiao1 zha4)... but no choice still have to give cause we damaged the jetskis... so the day's event ended early cause of the accident and we stayed in the hotel... watch tv.. had supper.. packed our luggage... then slept early for the following day's early departure...

so now my sis's restricted in walking until recovery which will probably take a month... she can walk but very slow... the accident costs about S$10,000... meaning we are in debt already.. and it's a big sum.. aunt says we dont have to return her the money.. treat it as paying for a lesson learnt.. as long as all of us learned valuable lesson the money will be worth it... but then i still think we should pay back cause it's our fault and we should bear the responsibility... da jie also ask us to find a solution to settle the debt... but we havent talked to her face to face yet about this so it's a case in pending...

LESSONS LEANRT
1) DON'T THINK THAT ADULTS LOVE TO NAG, THEY WORRY WITH GOOD REASONS
2) ALWAYS BE EXTRA CAREFUL WHEN IT COMES TO SAFETY BECAUSE ACCIDENTS HAPPEN AT MOST UNEXPECTED MOMENTS
3) PRECAUTIONS ARE MUSTS
4) DON'T INVOLVE ANY FAMILY MEMBERS UNLESS ASSISTANCE IS NEEDED WHEN SUCH ACCIDENTS HAPPEN AT FOREIGN GROUNDS BECAUSE INFORMING THEM WILL ONLY CAUSE THEM TO WORRY AND FEEL HELPLESS, BE CONSIDERATE ABOUT THEIR FEELINGS AND INFORM THEM AFTER THINGS ARE SETTLED (point from my aunt but i'm not totally agreeable)
5) IF YOU WANT OTHERS TO CHANGE, YOU MUST CHANGE YOURSELF FIRST BECAUSE HOW YOU TREAT THE OTHER PARTY AFFECTS THE LATTER'S BEHAVIOUR (side track from the accident)

P.S. photos are up in my shutterfly album (link at right hand side) and facebook

20/6/10

2010-06-20T12:53:00.007+08:00

PEI SHAN IS FLYING TO THAILAND

TOMORROW FOR 4-DAYS-3-NIGHTS!!!!

(super sudden but necessary so i won't be contactable for this period)

19/6/10

2010-06-19T00:53:00.003+08:00

just came back and bathed... today woke up early in the morning to go school take math mock test.. zzzz.. totally unprepared.. for 3 weeks of holiday i didnt touch any work... if i add the last 2 weeks before hols start.. that'll be 5 weeks i slacked... haha.. anyway... just as expected i failed miserably.. 36/102.. wow... wake up call.. afternoon i went to paul's house to study... 2nd time le.. 1st was last week i think... did corrections for the math paper.. then a bit of gsc.. half way through we went to bake cake.. haha.. suddenly felt like it.. and also to relax a bit... anyway i helped out.. he's the main chef.. hmm how should i say.. the cake turned out pretty alright.. except for the top crust that's a bit hard and burnt.. the cake tastes good... haha.. at night paul's mum and sis went to buy desserts so we ate at around 10pm++... dessert + chicken wings... seriously i ate alot recently... zzz.. super fat haha... all in all study session's good cause we can motivate and push each other.. going more frequently next week... in preparation for common test =(

14/6/10

2010-06-14T23:53:00.004+08:00

the weekend i attended 2 birthday celebrations... on sat went to sembawang park for daddy's bbq... lin and kokhong went as well.. nothing much cause i dont know all his friends.. but daddy was super high and somewhat drunk.. he went around kissing everyone (not on the lips of course).. guys and girls.. sadly i zhong4 the most... urgh.. haha no offence here... but really i dont like being kissed....

sun went to huiru 21st birthday part at chalet... very re4 nao4.. alot of people... it was like a gambling den also... haha... got mahjong blackjack and poker... haha.. i left early cause today going out with krist and vanessa... and so today i went out with krist and vanessa to malaysia... just to chill out one day... krist and i waited for vanessa at the shopping mall and she didnt turn up half an hour after our meeting time.. so we got worried cause she usually wont be late.. we tried to call her but didnt manage to borrow a phone until finally the security from the shopping mall is kind enough to lend us her phone.. then vanessa reaching le.. she was delayed.. had breakfast at toastbox then walk around.. then we went to a salon to get a haircut.. all 3 of us cut and chose junior stylists (cause cheaper)... and i should say the hairdresser that attended to me was good... really.. i think he's quite pro and the outcome (of my hair of course) turn out good... haha... vanessa's one also very nice.. make her look like a successful career woman... hen3 you3 qi4 shi4.. krist was normal.. her hair nothing much to change or cut... then we went for lunch at a cafe.. saw my cousin.. she's working there.. haha. then we got special service.. even can din3 ge1.. haha... shopped around more after that.. we bought friendship bands (or bracelets?) together.. also bought same shirt but different colour.. haha... oh! we saw daddy!! SUPER QIAO3.. haha... i was just wondering who's the familiar king kong walking towards me then i realised it's him... HAHAHA.. NICE & RELAXING DAY!!! =D

10/6/10

2010-06-10T22:45:00.003+08:00

this going to be a LONG LONG post after a LONG LONG time.. haha.. FINALLY! MY CIP IS OVER!!!! this class cip lasted for about 4 months from the start to the end.. its a 2-and-a-half day camp we organised for less privileged kids at a social centre... the WHOLE THING is fully done by ourselves.. from planning to executing.. plus all the paper work... EVERYTHING! so its the first time i actually am FULLY in charge of planning and running an event (by the way i am the overall head for this cip project)... a brand new experience... with bagfuls of learning points taken away from this.. one thing for sure.. THIS IS NOT EASY!!! tough tough and tough... there's plenty of things to be aware of.. and i have to keep on reviewing the whole planning in my mind again and again and again to correct mistakes and tie up loose ends.. so i practically was thinking of this cip during most of my travelling time and free time... luckily i have 4 efficient and capable team heads to help lead the whole class and discuss with... lighten my workload by tonnes... today is the last day of the camp... throughout the camp i should say i really overlooked quite some issues... my instructions to the facilitators of the camp werent clear... then estimation of the duration for the activities werent as good too... got a bit frantic and uptight when changes arise to the schedule.... think i didnt control my emotions well especially when there were alot of things on my mind causing overlooked areas and unclear and rushed instructions.... i think i didnt do well enough for this camp.. but vanessa says that our camp is actually successful because the success depends on how the kids felt and what they experienced in the camp... its regardless of all the -behind-the-scene mess... hmmm... am i too pessimistic then?? but anyway.. the kids have fun and i think our class enjoyed themselves too.. the kids got very attached to some of the facilitators.. people like scott daniel wenlyn haslinda etc all had kids that practically glued onto them.. haha... all in all.. WELL DONE 09SH22!!!!!

1/6/10

2010-06-01T19:29:00.003+08:00

永无宁日的生活
虚伪恶心的男人
卑鄙无耻的想法
莫名其妙的女人
不可理喻的态度
原本宁静却变成恨不得逃开的地方
烦啊

23/5/10

2010-05-23T00:25:00.004+08:00

羅志祥2010新加坡舞法舞天演唱會好看慘了！！！
haha.. i just came back from show's concert at singapore indoor stadium.. superb.. really like it alot.. the visual effects created perfect flow of the whole concert.. music and his songs were great... dance fantastic.. the only small dissatisfaction is that we were seated quite far away from the stage and all the people in front are so tall that i can hardly see the stage at all.. had to look at the screen most of the time... so sad =(... wish i was nearer then can watch comfortably instead of straining my neck and tip-toeing all the time.. haha.. anyway... today i finally know how crazy fans can get.. really.. insane.. there were SUPER ALOT of people at the indoor stadium way before the concert queuing to buy show's items... then entering for the concert also have to queue!! and i think i queued like 1hour just to get in seated.. wow! and oh! i also went to his meet-the-fans session on thursday 20 may at city square mall.. the session starts at 7.30pm and i reached there at around 6pm and the queue to go on stage to shake hands with him already queued from atrium in the shopping mall to farrer park!!! oh my god.. crazy fans... really.. haha.. lucky i'm the rational type even though i rally like him.. haha... lastly upon his request i will say this again (i feel so too):
羅志祥2010新加坡舞法舞天演唱會好看慘了！！！

2/5/10

2010-05-02T18:17:00.004+08:00

石头的故事

从前从前，有一个再普通不过的石头。说它是个石头，它还真是个石头，每天发呆，待在自己的盒子里，不问世事。它以为生活就该如此，单单纯纯、平平凡凡、快快乐乐。。。
直到有一天，一切都变了。创造石头的工匠和雕刀闹翻了。他们共事多年，一向来都还算和睦，但不知怎么了，竟大吵起来。原来，是工匠喜新厌旧，看到更新、更精美的工具，爱不释手，便买了回来，还打算把那老旧的雕刀丢了。雕刀气得七窍生烟，开始疯了似地在店里大肆破坏，害得店里的柜子、琉璃和天灯都遭殃，连工匠的帽子也无可幸免。
石头当然也逃不了池鱼之殃，所以也被牵连进去了。它打开盒子往外一看，被眼前的惨状吓着了。店里像被台风侵袭，工匠和雕刀也都狼狈不堪，最令它震惊的是，摆放琉璃、天灯和它的柜子，几乎被破坏殆尽，好像随时都会垮下。

待续。。。

16/4/10

2010-04-16T21:36:00.003+08:00

A Tribute to my Table Tennis:

First and foremost, thanks for accompanying me for 10 years. In these long years, I have loved you passionately to the extent that other than studies and daily routines, my life is all about you. I am proud to say that I have tried with all my might and 100% commitment, persevering till the end with you. You have been a big part of me. You brought me friends, and not just any type of friends, but those that share a deep bond and will, I believe, walk with me in the years ahead; You brought me caring and fun staffs from Sports School that I will remember and be grateful forever; You shared my moments of tears and anguish when I just couldn't do it right, and stayed by me giving me your silent support; You celebrate my achievements with quiet glory. Even though I have not made it far with you, nor did I perform up to expectation for the final games recently, I am still glad and grateful of your presence in my life. Thank you, truly, for giving so much in my life. Today, I bid farewell to you, not because I grew sick and tired of you, but because I have decided to move on from the 10 years and open myself to more choices and opportunities. Goodbye, my Table Tennis.

With much love,
Pei Shan

3/4/10

2010-04-03T20:09:00.005+08:00

haha seems that my blog's a little out of maintenance.. haha.. anyway.. i went to watch a theatre performance.. liao zhai musical... it's fantastic.. haha.. i really like it... the live band, live singing, acting and stage setup.. fabulous.. pity we were sitting at the top level.. cant get to see the facial expression of the actors and actresses... story is the typical liao zhai romance.. slightly twisted but ok... the unique thing is the music is all rock music.. different from the conventional musical.... but it's still nice haha... and oh! liu lao shi's one of the casts.. though not the main one.. sadz.. really want to watch a performance which he starred in... haha

today i went with my 2nd sis to the national museum of singapore.. haha.. dont be too surprised... we went for an exhibition.. quest for immortality... showcasing ancient egypt items... it's damn cool.. haha.. i had fun there.. there's even a real mummy showcased.. then saw hieroglyphic.. super cool too.. they can be read from a various different directions depending on the writer.. oh i like the sphinx (human head lion body) and anubis (guardian of death)... haha.. took some pictures.. but mostly unclear cause we're not allowed flash...

REAL CORPSE AKA MUMMY!

thought this line's interesting: "You have not departed dead, you have departed alive."

20/3/10

2010-03-20T15:43:00.002+08:00

ZZZ.. super long since i updated again.. REALLY VERY ZZZ.. holidays ending.. so fast one week passed... and sadly even though its holiday i have to go back to school almost everyday.. and what's more.. the assignment pile for holidays is even more than normal school days!!! @#$#^%@#&$@% seriously.. the amount of work for this one pathetic week of holiday is equal to that of a month worth of holiday!!!! ARGH!!! SIANZZZ.. and as usual.. i didn't touch a single piece of work up until now.. and today is saturday already.. HAIZZZ... no mood at all to complete the work.. just thinking of them is already a torture.. sianz.. 8 more months of this hellish life..... ARGH! anyway... inter-jc table tennis starting as well... hope i can play well this time cause it'll probably be the last time i'm playing competitive... hope i can see improvement in myself and bring the team to further rounds.. don't fail like i did last year... jia you ba... haizz..

27/2/10

2010-02-27T17:46:00.003+08:00

yesterday's the craziest day of all.. krist and vanessa will playing barbie doll on me... dressing me up with alot of things etc etc etc... wear this wear that etc etc.. so i wore something so not peishan yesterday... zzz.. anyway the occasion is that we are going to the pub for the 1st time.. cause feel that should go experience it at least once... so the 4 of us krist derrick daddy and i decided to go together... vanessa met us up but left shortly so she didnt join in... anyway we went to highlanders... there's a live band inside!!! it's quite nice.. as in 1st time i listen to live singing... so different and much more nicer haha. krist and i drank cocktail.. mine's not bad-tasting actually.. then we left and went to five elements cause daddy say got games there to play while drinking.. but only beer... oh man! I HATE THE TASTE OF BEER!! SUPER AWFUL!! anyway we played card and loser have to drink according to how much the loss is.. so i actually drank alot cause i keep losing.. but half way through i really cant take it le... my head's spinning like mad so daddy had to help me drink as well.. so i guess he drank alot as well yesterday haha... after that we left to sober up a bit at the hawker then separated to go home... derrick sent krist home and daddy me.. seriously i was drunk (that's what daddy said)... anyway.. the moment we boarded the night rider i felt like vomiting... so we quickly alighted and yeah i vomited... YEUW!!! CHAO1 JI2 NAN3 SHOU4!!!!! SUPER UNCOMFORTABLE!!!! really.. i think i vomited out the whole day's meal.. then daddy decided to cab me home.. i slept the moment we were on taxi.. reached home at around 2.30am.. then i wash up a bit and vomited again.. this time no more food to vomit so all the gastric juices... URGH!! really... the worst feeling to have... then changed and went to bed at around 3.30am... today morning i woke up at 7.15am to go for a meeting.. so i hardly slept.. but i still manage to function quite well (unlike krist who didnt appear at all)... this i have to thank derrick... seriously.. thanks for the advice to have panadol and warm water before sleep so i felt much better when i woke up... (by the way i think i really look terrible yesterday night cause derrick keep asking me if i was alright.. haha).. anyway MY CONCLUSION: GETTING DRUNK IS THE WORST FEELING TO HAVE SO EXPERIENCE IT ONCE IS ENOUGH!! I AM NEVER GOING TO DRINK AT PUBS AND THE LIKES ANYMORE!!! NO MORE ALCOHOL FOR PEISHAN!!!!

P.S. stomach still feeling uncomfortable now and totally lost of appetite =.=

20/2/10

2010-02-20T23:16:00.002+08:00

ZZZ... ZZZ... ZZZ... sianz... i do homework until i'm going crazy le.. i hate it seriously... homework's like neverending... i finished a whole lot and thought i was ahead but when i look back again.. THERE IS STILL LOADS WAITING FOR ME!! URGH!!! zzz.. really very sianz.. haizz.. still have alot of work that i have to complete... haiz... anyway today morning i met up with krist and her friend derrick (spelled correctly?) at kap for early lunch.. then we went macritchie reservoir park and trekked 10km.. 10KM!!!!! zzz i'm crazy.. seriously.. took us 2.5hours to finish it.. and just trekking is tiring enough... imagine krist and derrick used to run there.. ZZZ x10!!! crazy people.. but anyway.. good experience... haha.. dont mind trekking often (as long as dont make me run)... but a bit far.. hmmm...

t-shirt from vanessa

16/2/10

2010-02-16T20:42:00.003+08:00

today went to lao shi's house bai nian in the morning at 9am++.. they complained it's too early =.=.. i thought it was normal.. anyway... ate alot in lao shi's house.. love her shui jiao especially haha.. then also managed to chat with alot of people.. cherie hinann laoshi justin... after that we went to zhan peng's house... alot less people this year than the previous... nevertheless we still enjoyed ourselves with ian's entertainment.. haha XP... after that i went to des' house.. saw jiayi at the bus stop so we went together.. then we chatted quite a bit.. he really grow up and mature already.. haha... at des' house we played guitar hero... i'm really retarded at it haha.. but drums easier for me... ate quite some food too (healthy, fat-free but tasty ones haha)... then left.. cause tmr got school so cant stay too long.. anyway... today's a tiring but fruitful day.. thanks to all those who hosted ie lao shi, zhan peng, des.... HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL!!

umbrella from des (er.. pink...)

P.S. i learnt to play mahjong from my cousin this new year and lost money haha

P.S. SORRY PAUL I DIDN'T GO TO YOUR HOUSE AND I REALISE THAT DES AND FAI ALSO DIDN'T MAKE IT!! SORRY REALLY T.T

12/2/10

2010-02-12T21:56:00.002+08:00

today went out with daddy huilin kokhond drey and krist after school.. to orchard for my post birthday celebration... AND THEY CHUAN4 TONG1 HAO3 XIAN4 HAI4 WO3!!!! ZZZ =.= daddy lin and drey (included since she did not object to it) went to buy me A DRESS!! URGH!!!! lin chose it and daddy bought it URGH!!!!! THEN THEY FORCE ME TO WEAR IT SUPER URGH!!!! haizz... took me super long to really pluck up the courage to wear it... haizz.. anyway i only change into it in the toilet for a while and let lin krist drey to see it.. thats all.. honestly... a big difficulty for me.. haizz.. SO PLS PEOPLE DON'T FORCE ME I SWEAR I WILL WEAR ONCE I AM READY.... but anyway.. thanks daddy for the present... i appreciate it really.. i will try my best to put it on as soon as possible.. and if i really do.. dont worry i will call you and tell you.. haha...

cny celebration in school

dress from daddy

10/2/10

2010-02-10T22:28:00.007+08:00

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!! HAHA!!! today is a happy day for me.. firstly i receive ALOT of wishes from everybody.. and alot of UNEXPECTED ones... regardless whether they are expected or unexpected ones... THANKS ALOT PEOPLE FOR SENDING ME YOUR WISHES!!! they really made my day =D... another thing is I WENT FOR BLOOD DONATION TODAY!!!! hahaha... reckon that i do something different for my 18th birthday... and also meaningful so that today will be memorial... so i decided to donate blood.. haha... here are some pics of today XD...

donating blood XP

bandage!!!

small gift i receive from bloodbank for donating on my birthday

contents inside

a souvenir from bloodbank

pledge to donate blood on every birthday =D

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PRESENTS I RECEIVE SO FAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XD XD XD THANKS ALOT!!!

lavender oil + oil burner from huilin and kokhong

chocolate from haslinda

show albums from my 2nd sis and cousin chi

2/2/10

2010-02-02T22:17:00.003+08:00

i shall not blog about anything that happened today or yesterday because school days are simply mundane.. nothing much to say... one sentence to sum in all.. rushing loads of work.. today i am going to blog about the sunday that just passed.. haha.. cause i was too busy had no time to do it.. anyway... sunday i went out with paul, des and fai... we went for a movie at amk hub... hachiko a dog's story.. honestly its not a narrative story with plot.. it's nearly a 'documentary'... it shows some sort of factual stuff but it's touching... haha.. hope i made sense.. anyway.. I LOVE THE HACHIKO IN THE MOVIE!!! haha.. it's SUPER CUTE!!! AND CLEVER!!! haha.. anyway great show for me...

the most important thing for that day is.. I REALLY ENJOYED MYSELF even though the 'effect' that follow was pretty bad (i had to really rush 100% work without rest so that i can complete my work though i still didnt manage it yet)... going out with them is really fun and enjoyable.. haha.. fai is noisy and chatty as usual... teasing paul with sarcastic remarks is as interesting as usual... fai and paul quarreling and talking non-stop like they hadnt seen each other for years is as usual... chatting casually and cracking lame jokes with des is as usual.. all these usual(s) equate to my happiness... haha.. great time out there... lastly... des is really a SUPERB FRIEND TO HAVE.. haha... i've said that in my sms and to krist and vanessa as well but i shall repeat it here again cause HE'S REALLY GREAT! haha.. how should i say... many of the small things he does really make me feel so glad and grateful that i have such a close and good friend like him... so THANKS ALOT DES =D and may the friendship among shan+paul+desmond+fai be everlasting...

30/1/10

2010-01-30T17:48:00.003+08:00

today i woke up early in the morning to go back sports school and help out in the jsa registration (of course i'm paid XP)... with krist too... nothing much.. just register the participants and direct them to the auditorium for briefing.. after krist and i went to the table tennis hall to see their trials... we played for a while also haha.. then dave ask us to play a few matches with them.. zzz... after that dave treated us together with zhai yu to lunch at pizza hut.. haha... eat until super full.. and the cheese is just so.. CHEESY... anyway.. THANKS JIAO LIAN FOR THE TREAT!! haha.. its so fun lor.. talking to them... happy haha... anyway i got back home at around 1pm++... then had to do clean-up.. cause chinese new year coming... so my 2nd sis, younger sis and i we did a thorough clean-up in me and my sis's room... we moved everything out from the shelves and tables and wiped everything... then shifted everything back.. then we sweep and mop the house... and oh! my sisters clean the very dusy fans before i reached home.. so now... I FEEL SO CLEAN!!! haha.. i mean i the house feels so clean and neat.. esp our room.. XD.. then i went to wash my socks and bathe haha.. just finish everything.. and its almost 6pm now... zzz.. took sooooooooooooo loooooong.... i'm supposed to finish my work today afternoon.. in the end never.. means at night have to chiong le... zzzz...

26/1/10

2010-01-26T19:29:00.004+08:00

PROUDLY PRESENTING.... KRIST'S PRESENT!!!! HANDMADE 90% BY PEISHAN!!!! haha... why 90% cause the photo album obviously not made by me la.. other than that everything else done by ME PERSONALLY!!! so proud of myself.. haha.. oops...

23/1/10

2010-01-23T23:10:00.004+08:00

SOOOOOOOOOOO LOOOOOOONG since i updated again.. haha... school started for two weeks already.. due to my ultimate slacking ability during holidays... i have been rushing like mad to complete all the holiday assignments so that i can hand in on time.. zzz... still rushing now anyway.. today i spent my entire morning and afternoon doing work.. do until i sianz and ZZZ... whats more.. i only managed to complete 3/4 of my math tutorial... and finish reading chem notes.. after that i did skipping (krist lent me her ropes haha) and weighted hula hoop... HAHA... recently (and REALLY VERY recently) i've been working on my physical fitness... why so.. probably because of napfa... or maybe just feel like doing so.. i dont know actually.. anyway... i'm mad enough to be doing lots of physical training with krist lately.. other that training 3 times a week for table tennis.. i have 2 pe lessons that consist of nothing but jogging and physical training.. on top of that there's physical training for the girls team, once a week, arranged by me =.= ... PLUS! vanessa krist and i have decided to leave one weekend morning every week to go jogging (or anything related) together... zzz... CRAZY!!! HAHAHA... but nothing bad la.. anyway... january is the month where there are LOTS of birthdays of people who are important to me.. so i have to keep reminding myself to sent out wishes (short term memory mah).. and also to go shop for their presents.. i've already given kokhong's present.. it's a shirt with hood.. hope he likes it (though i not sure whether the design is his type).. and i've settled paul's, boey's and krist's presents as well... haha... so proud of myself.. and most importantly... krist's present is hand made by me totally!!! haha.. i bought the raw materials and did everything else myself.. so happy to see the product...

14/1/10

2010-01-14T20:46:00.002+08:00

school started.. sianz... i have to rush like mad to complete the holiday assignments which i didnt do during the holidays so that i can meet the deadline... and the most sianz thing is I ONLY HAVE ONE SUBJECT CLASS SAME AS KRIST AND VANESSA!!! argh! last year i only have one subject class different from them (excluding the different elective)... THIS YEAR! all different! sianz.. haiz.. i'm the one joining other people in their subject classes... so all different people.. and mostly unfamiliar... the only good thing is I HAVE ONE PE CLASS MADE UP OF MOST PEOPLE FROM MY CIVICS CLASS!! WITH KRIST AND VANESSA ALSO!! haha that means we can have fun!!! also got people like scott to entertain us... haha... anyway... like usual i'm slacking right now... sianz ah.... haiz....

8/1/10

2010-01-08T00:39:00.002+08:00

无语　唉...

31/12/09

2009-12-31T00:23:00.003+08:00

i've done something that i never imagined i could have accomplished.... i completed 4 ENGLISH books, thick ones (or least they are to me), in LESS THAN A WEEK!!! OMG!! AMAZING FEAT! haha... sounds a bit exaggerated... but true to me... anyway... i completed the twilight saga: twilight, new moon, eclipse, breaking dawn... i just brought them everywhere i go and find every second i can to read.... to be honest the books are awesome i was so engrossed and intrigued that i simply couldn't put them down BUT there are always the draggy and uninteresting parts that i have to struggle through... frankly i love eclipse the most cause from the beginning to the end the story was never boring to me.. unlike the 3 other books where i REALLY need to struggle though.. haha... anyway... now that i felt the joy of accomplishment... THE DISASTER DOOMED ME! I JUST WASTED=SLACKED ANOTHER WEEK WITHOUT TOUCHING MY SCHOOL WORK!!!! ARGH!! can someone just lend me a knife or something so that i can kill myself??!! or maybe lend me a hand and bang my head against the wall so some sense MIGHT reach in??!! HAIZZZ... anyway as a form of atonement i'd probably stay home tmr to rush through some... so maybe... for once in many years.. i will be spending new year countdown alone at home buried in the mountain of work i have while repenting on my almost-sinful attitude... haizzz...

27/12/09

2009-12-27T21:26:00.003+08:00

my 2nd sister's birthday yesterday... cut the cake late at night.. zzz =.=

25/12/09

2009-12-25T22:49:00.002+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!! (too lazy to blog further.. long day yesterday... tired..)

18/12/09

2009-12-18T00:23:00.003+08:00

just came back home from a gathering with paul desmond and fai... we went for a movie.... AVATAR!!!! hahah.. awesome show! i liked it alot.. for the whole 2.5 hours i was engaged in the show.. just feel nervous together with the characters when they fought... and i like the backdrop.. very beautiful... the plants too.... strange but pretty... there's only one part that scared me.. and that is when there was a sudden loud noise and fai jumped and shook the whole chair =.=||| ... the show was really fantastic... or at least it was to the 4 of us... and just like boey said.. it's the most worth it among our expenditure today... paul got so engrossed that he kept saying he wished he could be in the avatar world... so here i am... saying it the n times to paul.... wake up from your dream..

anyway.. after the movie we went for dinner... without fai cause she had to go back... travelled all the way to park mall at dhoby ghaut to have buffet at this i-don't-know-its-name restaurant.... food was alright.. then took mrt back to yio chu kang then boey's brother drove us back.. thanks alot =D... today was fun... had alot of chatting as usual XD... oh! i almost forgot... paul is a sadist and masochist.. he used the gift boey bought for us to poke people.. he used the spiky part and poked me and himself until there's a deep depression that can almost see blood.. then used it to create letters on our hands.. zzz.... paul..

15/12/09

2009-12-15T10:08:00.003+08:00

its been SO long since i update again.. haha.. cause i've been REALLY busy with work... at sports school mainly.. first is the international youth sports challenge (iysc).... an event fully organised by sports school... worked under mar-comm (is that how you spell it?) so my life wasnt as tough as the secretariat... just taking photos and collating results throughout the event and update them on the website... plus handling the closing dinner and some other minor stuff... only difficulty is when there are several matches going on at the same time then i have to rush from one end to another so that i could cover them.. and the only tiring part is when i have to wait until 11pm++ just for the result of the game... after iysc i worked as secretariat for the YOG friendship camp... super hectic at the beginning... really.... only knock off at 1am or 2am in the morning... then next day wake up early to open the secretariat office as well.. anyway my job is just to entertain the MOE people (which is the YOG workforce who organised and is in charge of the camp)... as in respond to their requests and enquiry etc... except for the 1st few days the rest of the days were alright.. cause we are not the organisers so nothing much to worry.. then by that time more or less everything is settled so not much of a problem... but last few days then a busy again... cause must make sure they checkout and return all hostel keys.. and account for any damaged or lost ones.. then hostel rooms and all other facilities have to turnover so that the next group can come in.. so all in all working IS tiring.. haha.. but i had fun too! the YOG mascots ARE SO CUTE! they were there for the opening and closing ceremony... managed to grab a photo with them... and i also got YOG t-shirts.. haha... and i'm glad i have the group og secretariat working alongside me.. they are very nice.. helpful and reliable... taught me alot cause at the beginning i dont know alot... except for fai who's not so trustworthy the rest of them are all great teammates... haha... ok la.. fai is helpful at times... so thats all.. have to start doing work... haiz...

20/11/09

2009-11-20T16:04:00.003+08:00

just came back from youth leadership training camp (yltc)... 5-days-4-nights camp.. so this post is going to be LONGGGG....

YLTC IS TORTUROUS, INSANELY TIRING, MADLY TEDIOUS, ULTIMATELY STRENUOUS etc etc!!!!! seriously! it is THE most tough camp i've ever been to.. it's really a TRAINING camp...
on the 1st day... we had to TREK 25KM WITH OUR SUPER HEAVY BACKPACK! we had to bring a lot of things for the camp... cause none is provided so our backpacks were SUPER heavy.. and we had to trek from nj to the camp site at serimbun (lim chu kang)... crazy... really... then when we reached our legs are like sore and tensed up.. pain as well.. but had to carry on to go for belay school and pitch up the tents...
2nd day... started with physical training... 10 counts of 8 jumping-jacks that are sychronised if not re-do.. then another 10 counts of 8 but this time we weren't allowed to count it out.. then 100 counts of 8 jumping-jacks again.. all in all i think we did roughly about 200 counts of 8 jumping-jacks.. another killer.. had to struggle through... after that a whole day of elements... to me they were fun.. some of them rather challenging.. cause there's individual and pair elements... sadly i didnt manage to try all cause we were short of time T.T
3rd day had to wake up early to pack up and unpitch the tents.. then we set off (fortunately on bus) to malaysia... our next camp site tanjong piai... another fortunate thing is we have dorms this time so no need to sleep outdoor.. BUT! there's only 5 cubicles in the toilet for 40 of us =.= LONG QUEUE.. we started with some team activities that require coordination and communication... then we did tree climbing.. haha very fun but a bit difficult cause really need alot of strength to hold onto the tree... then we got to drink and eat coconut that was freshly cut from the tree.. then we had a night walk.. one 2.5km individual walk and another 2.5km team walk.. REALLY LONG.. only a bit scary at first.. but after some time it was ok because we start seeing the camp trainers either walking pass us (cause they had to petrol) or stationed at positions (to ensure safety)... then slightly more than half way can start to see other group's people walking in opposite direction so we pass by each other.. the only thing about the walk is cause there's no torchlight and we were walking on rocky pathway... i kept tripping.. team walk was easy...
4th day we had to do physical training again.. MORE jumping-jacks... sianz.. then a whole day of DIRTY activities.. started with team challenge.. had to combine with our buddy group to complete obstacle race.. we had to stay connected (in any way) and walk on protruding tyres, then crawled on muddy soil and not touch the net above us and balance through the zig-zag beam... next we had to carry people across the tyre without touching it.. then monkey-bar and lastly climb over a vertical wall.... after that we proceed on to the next activity.. and that is to waddle across a swamp first (water level up to shoulders).. difficult to walk cause the legs keep sinking into the mud... then had to balance across a pipe which all but one failed... and lastly cross floating tyres... and oh! we also did jetty jumping.. ON A VERY WRONG WEATHER.. it's just after the rain so it's SUPER SUPER SUPER cold at the jetty.. even when we sit at the pavilion all of us were feeling so cold that we started to tremble.. and i can feel my teeth knocking into each other as well.. when we jump into the sea it's alright cause seawater quite warm.. but when we come up again... IT WAS FREEZING!!! at night we had campfire..... my first time.. so fun... everyone was there.. trainers, teachers and us... then the ever so funny and energetic trainers brought up the spirits.. and the groups had to take turns to perform something that brings out one of our school values...
5th day.. WE WERE TRICKED! cause we were told the previous night that we only need to wake up for breakfast at 7am.. everyone was so happy.. but on this last day 4am the overall ic barge into the dorm and woke us up and shouted: "it's 4am now! everybody wake up and assemble immediately at the entrance courtyard by 4.10am!" ZZZZ.. we only manage to go to bed at around 1am (by the way everyday we sleep only at around 12 midnight and have to wake up at 3/4/5am).. then we had to rush out.. and cause some of us were late.. we had to get down on push up position on the rocky road... super pain... then had to stand up and go down several times cause we didnt manage to assemble in two rows in our respective groups.. then have to do push ups too.. zzz... next is the team challenge... 5km jog... early in the morning when the sky is still dark.. zzz... anyway.. we had to retrive our flags and at halfway journey we were given a task.. the teacher picked one of our member to be the 'casualty'.. meaning we had to carry the 'casualty' back.. unfortunately we got an evil teacher that chose one of the fittest guys as the 'casualty'.. and we're only left with 4 other guys to help the carrying.. the rest all girls.. although we came abck last but we were still glad that we persevered and completed the challenge... after that we finally have some enjoyment.. and that is.. PAINTBALL!!! YAY!!! haha all of us get to combat 2 rounds... its fun... but SUPER pain when hit.. now i have a swollen bruise on my right wrist and another big one on my right thigh.. pain... that's the last thing we did and we packed and came back....

throughout this camp.. i'm very happy that i have these people in my group... bryan, khairul, jinghan, junhong, jerrell, emily, fiona, yinlan, weiqi, victoria and vanessa (though she left first due to her injury)... they are a great bunch of people... supportive and encouraging.. all of us worked better and better each day... we all take turns to lead too... also very thankful to them for bringing all the utensils, meal bags and mess tins for our meals... and also doing the washing up..every meal some of us will initiate to do somethings.. may be taking food.. may be washing up.. may be clearing the rubbish.. loads... they were also an energetic group... singing all the time.. haha.. and cracking lame and non-sensical jokes... real thanks to GROUP 8: HONEYS for the time together.. it'll be great memory...

also very thankful to the trainers that were with us throughout.. firstly MUST thank our own trainer hadi for being such a great trainer.. joining us in the fun and also the tough times.. always giving us useful advice.. supporting and encouraging us.. so THANKS HADI! next i'm also thankful to the other trainers that also came to our group every now and then to check on us as well as chat with us... and also for all the mass sessions we had.. i really likes trainers reo and ismal (dont know if i spelled correctly)... THEY WERE SUPER FUNNY!!!! i dont know how to say but they are really funny.. and i liked ismal's smile too... so bright and cute.. haha...

so that's about all for yltc.. and wow! its REALLY LOOONNNGGG... haha

10/11/09

2009-11-10T15:40:00.002+08:00

YAY!!! PROJECT WORK IF FINALLY OVER!!! YIPEEEE!!!!! hahahahaahahha.. today marks the end of PW after an ENTIRE YEAR working on it.. did SUPER ALOT of write-ups.. preliminary idea, group project proposal, evaluation of material, written report, insights and reflections.. and each write-up have to submit a few drafts... then we had to carry out pilot test, do alot of research and stuff.. so ONE WHOLE YEAR we are stuck with PW... but! after today's oral presentation we can FINALLY say byebye to PW!!! YAY!! i'm so happy.. hahah.... well... although there are crisis, complains, moans and groans, countless sleepless (almost) nights.. we pulled through =D and maybe many flaws and imperfections we realised after submission... but its ok its alright.. everything is over.. today's presentation was alright.. most of the things went well... maybe little slips but on the whole all of us did just fine... so lastly... thanks alot my PW group NJ108..you guys worked very hard and everyone had the common target of doing well in PW which is why everything turn out well... thanks alot to our supervising tutor MS WANG!!!! really thanks alot to her we did so well.. cause she only took over half way in june when our initial tutor left.. kind, nice, patient and encouraging... she worked as hard as us.. looking and re-looking at our drafts.. also giving us support and encouragement every now and then so thanks alot ms wang =D

1/11/09

2009-11-01T20:20:00.005+08:00

ZZZ.. SUPER TIRED...
went to boey's house yesterday for bbq + gathering... there were fai paul hinann dan boey and i.. haha.. 6 of us... played monopoly deal... ate until we are bloated... so full that cant even stand up straight.. then took lots of photos with halloween dress up.. haha... boey bought alot of stuff.. he and paul tried to paint fai into the joker but the end product was no where near... haha.. then we use the "blood" to create "crime scenes" and took many photos... as usual i'm seldom in them cause i'm the camera man.. anyway i don't have the photos.. with fai and dan.. have to wait for them to load up =D then today i had to woke up VERY early cause i got work... work up at 5.45am.. couldn't sleep the whole night cause fai occupied 3/4 of the sofa bed so i was squeezed to one side.. moreover she kept elbowing me every now and then =.= anyway feel so sorry for boey who had to wake up with me cause he need to send me out... and REAL THANKS FOR PREPARING BREAKFAST FOR ME!!!! XD so touched.. haha.. but seriously.. BOEY YOU ARE A FANTASTIC HOST!!! all of us enjoyed ourselves.. thanks again...
so today i went to work.. there's a swimming event.. so was kind of busy... after the event i still had to extend work hours back in office until 5pm... raeched home slightly before 7pm.. so now i'm very tired.. zzz

28/10/09

2009-10-28T18:21:00.003+08:00

OMG I GOT BACK MY PROMO RESULTS!!!!! haiz... well what should i say.. it's not too bad but not too good either.. at least i am not very pleased with my results... haizz... here's the breakdown...

General Paper: D
General Studies in Chinese: B
Math: B
Biology: B
Chemistry: E

more or less my promo results will be same as the overall result for the year except for chem which might drop to S cause i scored U in common test... disappointed in my math.. thoroughly.. cause it's THE ONLY subject i did consistent work for... and i got a LOW B... sianz... most importantly! i missed out the ENTIRE last question which consist of 13m!!!! ARGH!!! and it's QUITE EASY!! just graphs... haiz... sianz... the rest nothing much to say.. more or less expected... anyway i leaving now for movie.. zhuan3 huan4 xin1 qing2... come back must chiong PW I&R.. must submit tmr and I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO WRITE!! SIANZ...

19/10/09

2009-10-19T22:27:00.002+08:00

went to krist house yesterday after tuition... late at night haha... went for dessert before going to her house.. slacked in her room.. started watching movies at 12am++... planned to have a disney marathon.... haha.. cause somehow on one of the school days we suddenly have this urge to watch disney shows.. so we brought movies to krist house and planned for a marathon... but we watched until 3am++ then cannot take it anymore and fell asleep.. hahaha... so we only watched peter pan, little mermaid 2 (unfinished) and beauty and the beast (unfinished as well).... hahaa.... then today after bobby and fiona came they played mahjong while i slacked by the side.. actually i was engrossed in watching aladdin cause i SERIOUSLY never watched before.. i know deprived childhood they say... then i read my novel blah blah blah.... played cards for a while... left her house at around 5.30pm... then came back home.. did my alkane tutorial cause tmr have chem lesson.... now then slacking... hmm... life calm, normal and ordinary like usual.. nothing much...

10/10/09

2009-10-10T23:47:00.002+08:00

just finished my part of the written report and sent to out for compiling... zzz... so tired... project work is really killing me (my group mates as well)... haiz.. anyway.. today's my 3rd day at work in british club... seriously now then i truly experience the busyness of working... not that my previous jobs too slack.. just that they only had certain peak hours.. the rest or most of the time not much work.. so just sit there staring into space.. which is not good because i will fall asleep... zzz... anyway... for these 3 days that i worked at british club... i am occupied from the moment i step into the office (by the way i am working as part time receptionist and admin) until the moment i step out of the office.. LITERALLY... super busy... just work and work and work and work... but i liked it just that after work very tiring... Z.Z now very sleepy...

5/10/09

2009-10-05T12:34:00.005+08:00

just finished my last promo paper... but i dont feel elated or whatsoever... cause i 'U'-ed my last and most horrible chem paper.. sianz.. zzz.. seriously.. super difficult.. haiz... i'm supposed to feel relieved happy relaxed now that promo is over.. but sadly.. none of these feelings co-operated with my nervous system... i only feel tired and tensed.. cause now i have to worry whether i can get promoted.. sianz.. zzz...

last friday i went to the zoo with my 2nd sis and cousin.. walked almost 4 hours there.. took alot of pictures.. of the animals not us.. haha... animals were super cute.. especially the polar bear haha... oh the white tiger is majestic as well... and so is the giraffe..

anyway.. now that exam is over.. i must work hard for project work.. hope it turns out to be good.. currently i should say its in rather a mess.. need to straighten out alot of things.. have to work it out with the group too... and oh! i'm starting work as well.. after school and on weekends.. at britsh club... zzz... packed schedule.. must seriously arrange out all my timings.. zzz

28/9/09

2009-09-28T23:48:00.004+08:00

haha today I SLACKED THE WHOLE DAY!! OMG!!! zzz.. so slack.. hahha.. and promos is not even 2 days away.. sianz.. anyway.. i watches show whole day then went for night movie with my sis and cousin.. haha.. watched fame.. SUPER NICE!! i like it =D.... super pro those performers.. can sing, dance, perform, play instrument, production etc.. multi-talented people.. haha.. anyway.. i did another crazy thing by buying the soundtrack immediately after movie.. haha.. so now my blog has the music.. enjoy people =D =D =D

23/9/09

2009-09-23T21:33:00.002+08:00

花泽类 --> 花则累 --> 花心思就会疲累

请别理我。我只是在耍白痴、耍无聊。解压当中......

22/9/09

2009-09-22T19:17:00.003+08:00

累

累

累

20/9/09

2009-09-20T18:57:00.003+08:00

haha.. been studying hard (or at least i deem so)... during the weekends.. studying and doing tutorial.. managed to complete some but still a handful left.. so later continue to work hard.. plus tmr too.. haiz sianz... below is a conversation (sms) between my crazy+weird friend and i...

kris: lol ah shan. i found my cloning notes. haha.
shan: zzz dont talk to me =.=
kris: haha cause yours (bio tutorial) missing too. i thought they eloped together. haha
shan: ya they did. but yours ditched mine. heartless like the owner.
kris: eh what man. haha. because yours found another piece of worksheet named (not meant to be disclosed). haha i win!! :)
shan: zz like that also can =.=
kris: haha i win liao.

(later part of conversation omitted cause irrelevant haha)

anyway.. see how lame are the 2 of us?? =.= esp her.. zzz.. stressed out?? or nature??? haha

17/9/09

2009-09-17T20:33:00.003+08:00

话剖这堆无厘头的文字无论是哪
废解抒发情绪罢了如果你很不一
堆慢道个地洞钻进去或到一巧个
一慢管找证明不管是哪一个地还
的能个想的应该就是自个无读是
说到找真足这自己计卑总人得谢
才间骚点不己我我厌感之岛懂谢
刚时牢优心自厌讨全在我上这你
我有发的信的下上身作就生堆浪
管超发喜自是就然不祟是活文费
不你在可己自何任出不找算字了
全就是过不只也多么那说了那时
完然不人的我了很个是该应你间
以可你了对上西东的聊无种这在

12/9/09

2009-09-12T11:43:00.003+08:00

zzz... so tired... sianz holidays passed.. but i'm still struggling with my work!!! anyway that aside.. yesterday.. or rather the start of today... i received a call.. rather shocking one cause i cant recognise his voice at all.. haha.. changed alot.. then i broke my record of a phone call duration.. i actually chatted for 5HOURS!!! (of course with interval breaks) omg... cant believe myself haha... chatted from like 12am - 5am ++... amazing.. but that was a wonderful chat.. managed to catch up alot with the old friend.. talked about lots of stuff... and laughed about our silliness when we were younger (oh my i sound so old haha).. anyway.. really great time there... =D

P.S. a 4-year deal starting from today

11/9/09

2009-09-11T00:12:00.004+08:00

just came back from kokhong house.. today we went to his house for bbq... mainly acad ppl but his relatives came too.. quite alot of the juniors came... seniors only the idle ones appeared ie. yongjia and ce.. our batch fai and cody didnt come... anyway... we bbq-ed and as usual lin and i did the job.. but fortunately.. some juniors very guai1.. they came to help out.. but i guess only shawn is the trustworthy one.. the rest worrying.. scared that we have stomachache after eating the food they cooked... haha... oh! dave came too.. 1st time.. and he brought along his family.. wife ian and chloe... haha... managed to chat with him a little.. then as usual we played polar bear.. zzz.. played for think 3 years still not bored =.= .... had a few rounds only... tricked by kokhong again at first.. then i ally with shawn and manage to figure out yongjia as one of the culprits.. haha.. and ce didnt get a chance to play.. cause when he joined then he got killed immediately... so he didnt get to shout ps like he always does when we play the game.. zzz... always frame me de... anyway i left early cause seriously.. holidays ending in 2 days time and I HAVENT TOUCHED ANY SCHOOLWORK!!!!! ARGH!!! NEVER DO MY WORK NEVER STUDY NEVER REVISE!!! so dead.. haiz... and promos is in 2 weeks time.. zzz die...

P.S. wilson's pose is so funny haha

9/9/09

2009-09-09T11:00:00.006+08:00

holidays just half passed.. and i havent revised study or complete homework.. haizz... anyway.. last sunday i went to send off my cousin at the airport.. he's going to taiwan to study.. so envious of him.. haha.. and together with my sisters and cousin.. we bought him a winter coat... black one.. but looks super cool.. sadly.. the estimation of the size was wrong because the sleeve was too short.. haha...

and oh!.. my aunt and uncle just came back from taiwan.. haha.. they bought SUPER ALOT of clothes back this time.. and of course... the ones that are happiest are my 2nd sis and cousin.. cause all those clothes are their type.. so they got alot.. 10 pieces together i think.. as for me.. you know.. those clothes are not my type.. =.= but i still got 4.. all 4 are super at the other extreme of what i am wearing now.. well.. cause my aunts and cousins plus my sisters all nag at me for all my dull and black wear.. they say i make myself look far older than my age.. so recently whatever i receive are all 'young' clothes.. so this time 4... the most normal one i guess is the t-shirt.. besides it's the girls cut and not the usual big and loose one i wear.. the thing that bothers me the most is the shirt is actually PINK!!! OMG!!! zzz.. haiz.. i guess i have to pluck up alot of my courage to put it on.. prob is since the shirts are from my aunt i cant possibly dont wear them so i must find chances to wear them out.. tmr i'm going kokhong house bbq so i was wondering if i should wear the pink shirt.. but on 2nd thought.. i tihnk i'll back out.. haizz.. anyway.. the other 3 clothes are what i deem as 'very girly' styles.. i dont know how to describe.. but they're just girly.. and none of them are black color of course.. light green light yellow and white + blue.. guess i'll need psychological preparation x n times to wear them.. zzz

28/8/09

2009-08-28T19:58:00.003+08:00

FINALLY I GOT TO LOAD UP PICS!!! last sat went out to celebrate huilin's birthday.. with fai drey krist and kokhong... ate at sakura at yck.. super full.. and i like the orea cheesecake XD verynice.. haha... bought her present as well.. clothes.. hopefully i get to see her wear it...

today i went back to sss for staff day celebration!!!! hahah.. saw alot of staff and chatted with them.. so happy.. haha... alot of alumni came back as well.. drey fai paul kokhong chuanen hinann ira melody etc etc... had fun today.. laughed really hard.. performance was not bad.. most astonishing was the duet singing reflection... they had marvelous voice.. and oh! i spent 2 weeks plus plus to do up staff day gifts.. i made roses.. single and bouquet... plus a few photocards.. gave them all out today.. so happy... cause i raelly thank all the staff there for their care and concern.. for theit help and encouragement... so i spent alot of time doing them out full heartedly... HAPPY DAY =D

16/8/09

2009-08-16T02:10:00.003+08:00

haha just came back from movie.. went out with my 2nd sis and daddy.. watched gi joe... nice movie... super cool action.. haha... hmmm.. plot was good... well the whole movie was surprisingly good.. better than what i expected i guess.. haha... hmm... oh! before the movie we killed time in the arcade.. and FINALLY daddy played ddr!!!!!! HAHAHHA!!!!!! well i should say he did quite well for a beginner.. at least he didnt get his legs tangled and look like some kingkong tripping over his own legs... hahha... i'm not sleepy now.. zzz... tmr.. no i should say today... HAVE TO FINISH MY WORK!!! ZZZ T.T.. fact is there is not much progress in my studies.. haiz.. still as slack as ever... then promos coming i also havent study... zzz... die... pw eom due next week i still trying to struggle it out.. haizz...

(P.S. first neo-print with daddy!)

13/8/09

2009-08-13T21:33:00.005+08:00

haha.. today i did my FIRST blood donation (but i actually did it in njc zzz)... haha.. cause today the blood service group came to our school... then we went for the blood donation... feel so happy that i'm doing something good to help some people out there =D... anyway the process was quite fun i suppose.. well because i'm not afraid of needles or blood.. krist was afraid of needle.. SUPER AFRAID.. sadly i didnt manage to be there to see her freaked out face cause she went earlier then me during her break time... while half of her blood was drawn out.. the nurse realise there was clotting and the whole thing cant carry on.. and because the bag wasnt completely filled up her half bag of blood cant be used and was disposed.. poor krist.. as for me i went in the afternoon.. all went on quite smoothly except that i have a bruise on my arm cause the needle was in my arm for too long (blood flowed out too slowly) and also because the needle rubbed against the walls of my vein... thats according to what the nurse said... other than this all was fine.. but krist was beside me trying to annoy and scare me by saying things like "OMG ah shan the needle is stuck in your vein cannot get out!" =.= lame... all in all today was good cause really have that sense of satisfaction when you know that you are of help to someone... hehe... below are pics we took.. the one in white bandage is me and purple krist...

29/7/09

2009-07-29T21:39:00.001+08:00

today's njtt handover + election for ex-co... election was done by voting... i got captain position and krist vice-captain.... hahah... glad?? maybe... cause i now have power to decide on training and competition.. the girls will know why i wanted this authority... haha.. anyway... hope the team will be more bonded under the new captains and vice-captains (oh! boys captain is brandon and vice-captain shijun)... anyway.. our very nice seniors made us gifts... small notebook with our names pasted on it... then inside they wrote a message.. mine was: STOP living in your own world! haha.. did i really did it so obvious?? haha... finally ogtten the team jerseys also... FINALLY REALLY (kind of late).. cause previously lots of problems with the clothes... so had to send back ask them send new ones.. the sizes wrong also... zzz... anyway.. both jerseys that i got are without labels... nothing at all.. haha... lastly... today lame krist did another lame and stupid thing... she was playing with food again... the curry soup for yong tau foo i ate today... she was trying to join all the chilli oil together to form one big spot.. haha.. but took her quite long.. then she ask for my help... after seeing many of her failed attemps i managed to grasp the technique to do it.. haha i know i sound lame now too... but anyway.. upon request i made a heart shape out of it.. PICS ARE UP XD.

26/7/09

2009-07-26T18:21:00.000+08:00

hmmm... what should i say... life's back to studying + homework + training + work..... zzz... so boring... and as usual... i slack as and when i can... watched harry potter and the half blood prince not long ago.. with daddy and my cousin... weird combi i know.. haha.. but that day was nice... fun too... we chatted during dinner... joke on each other etc.... haha... relieve stress lor.. for daddy and me ba... then this week was one of my important friend's birthday... seems that we very you3 yuan2... cause the day before his birthday he suddenly msg me... with unknown number.. so just as i sms out to ask who he is i suddenly remember the following day was his birthday.. and right after i set a reminder he replied back and told me he changed number... it sounds very normal but i feel that it was such a coincidence.. hhaa... then he said he just had a hard time getting my number cause he lost it... hahha... anyway... chatted for a while later.. found out he is doing well now... so i'm very happy for him... well... though we hardly contact each other... probably 2-3 times a year only.. but to me he's a special friend =D.... best wishes to him.... now... i'm killing a bit of time.... I HAVENT FINISHED WHAT I AM SUPPOSED TO FINISH THIS WEEKEND!!! ARGH!!! as usual i slacked again... zzzz... haiz.... cant do chem tutorial also.. dont know how to do... sianz.. then assignment must hand in tmr... zzz... anyway i also dont know how... going for tutoring now... sianz....

17/7/09

2009-07-17T19:18:00.008+08:00

hmmm.... recently i have been SUPER EXTREMELY TIRED... lack of sleep mainly... for 2 consecutive weeks my average sleeping hours per day is around 4-5.. zzz... haizz... some updates.. start with the good one... OUR GROUP PROJECT PROPOSAL IS FINALLY DONE AND APPROVED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! seriously! we spent like n times editing... adding information... researching... and editing again.... even restructured the entire GPP... zz... really time-consuming.... but finally it's done.. phew! and honestly... i have to mention this again... THANKS ALOT SCOTT! =D thanks seriuosly for spending so much effort in doing this GPP even pass 2-3am everytime, for collating and editing the GPP n times and taking those difficult to handle comments... your hardwork is truly appreciate by the group.. not to forget shairah too.. always working as hard with scott =D... let's all work hard for our last phase research and the written report!!! done with the good news.. now the bad one.. this week i got back all (except GP) common test results and papers... here's the breakdown... GSC: 62 GRADE B, MATH: 59 GRADE C, BIO: 53.5 GRADE D, CHEM: 33.5 GRADE U. well what should i say... hmmm.. DISASTROUS?! haiz... actually kind of expected these results.. but when really see it still very sad... haiz... haiz... really what am i doing??? slacker... haiz.... anyway.. i also dont know how... haiz... hope GP grade is better.. thats all...

15/7/09

2009-07-15T23:22:00.006+08:00

URGENT!!!!!!!!!!!! IMPORTANT!!!!!!!!!!!! I NEED ANYONE'S HELP!!!!!!!!!!!! JUST TAKE A FEW MINUTES TO COMPLETE THE SURVEY LINKED BELOW. THANKS

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12/7/09

2009-07-12T00:37:00.002+08:00

OMG!!!!! WO3 HEN3 PEI4 Fu4 WO3 Zi4 JI3!!!! hahhaa.. seriously... i accomplished something that i thought i never would be able to... since wednesday up to today... i've been working EXTREMELY hard on my schoolwork... AND! i managed to resist the temptation of my computer... for these 4 days, the only time i used the com was to check my email nad do research.. so... I HAVE FOCUSED FOR 4 DAYS STRAIGHT TOTALLY ON MY SCHOOLWORK AND NOTHING ELSE!!!! hahha... i didnt slack at all... such a miracle... anyway... the cause of my hardwork is because of my LAZINESS!!! hahha.. well.. like i mentioned before.. i've slacked throughout the 6 weeks during the holidays without touching anything about schoolwork.. so after the common test... on my math tutorial... my new tutor decides to check whether we completed our june hols revision package... and of course i didnt (except for 1 question each from the 3 out of 9 topisc that i've done)... so i told her that i'll show it to her the next tutorial.. and then i started doing it our these few days... and i managed to! (though i never finish everything)... i completed 7 topics which was what i said i will show to my tutor.. haha... then i also finish the new tutorial that she assigned... hahhahaha... BUT! despite finishing so many work.. THERE IS STILL PLENTY OF IT WAITING FOR ME!!!! (from other subjects of course).... zzz... and i decided to reward myself by going back to malaysia tmr.. actually the main purpose was to help my cousin move her stuff cause she's studying in s'pore now... and we decided to go city square and slack... haha.. but i'm still bringing work.. i need to do the pw stuff on the SUPER LONG bus trip... GAMBATEI PEISHAN!!!!

3/7/09

2009-07-03T22:58:00.005+08:00

just came back from the gathering with fai des and paul... we went to jurong hilltop for dinner.. des brought us there.. really nice place i think.. cozy.. nice scenery.... as usual.. paul was the latest... we all ate korean ban4 fan4.. quite nice... SUPER filling.. cant even finish and i'm already bloated... haha... chatted all the while.. paul's a heartless guy... cause yesterday he said he wanted to go back sss see teachers today morning... so i KINDLY offered to accompany him back... but in the end he never said anything.. THEN! during dinner... he was saying about going back to.. so he asked fai wed can anot.. and he say whether i can go IS MY OWN BUSINESS! how inhuman... hahha... hahhaha.... i know he didnt mean it but too bad.. words just slipped out of his mouth and i will use it to suan1 him... hahah.... the conversation was funny and interesting esp with the joker fai... but towards the back fai and paul were engrossed in their own chat... des and i signed language each other to go... haha... anyway... we climbed all the way up to see the SUPER nice scenery.... well... it's very nice compared to the veryday night sky... haha... then 3 of us were kind enough to cab with fai to novena because she was running late for her movie... on our way back home we sent lame sms... seriously very lame... cause we separate all the words into different sms by each of us.. zzz =.=

2/7/09

2009-07-02T21:08:00.002+08:00

HAHAHAHAH I FINALLY FINISH MY COMMON TEST!!! YOOHOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XD BUT!!!!!!!! i guess... no... i GUARANTEE... i failed all of them except for gsc i guess... hahah... chem is a goner... DEAD goner.... bio still alright... slight chance to pass... maths same... gp depends on luck seriously... hahah... and i'm talking about PASSING these subjects only.. not even dare to dream of scoring well... zzzz..... haizz... but what can i expect??? esp from someone who slacks for 6 WHOLE weeks without touching any work.. no studying or revising.. then take the test... zzz.... haizz... what am i doing???
that aside today i went back to sss after my paper... haha... to ocllect my grad cert etc... then went to see some staffs.. mr chew, mr lau, mr mak, mr ho, mr poh, ms foo, lai lao shi etc.... ms kelly on mc so never see her... i thought i saw zhou lao shi at her seat but when i went to look for her she disappeared... never see ms nora at all.... haha... but anyway.. chatted alot with mr lau... haha... asked about my life in nj of course... he gave me some advice in managing a level sciences esp chem... said he had faith in me.. i just need to get used to thinking more... but honestly speaking.. I HAVE NO FAITH IN MYSELF XD.... anyway.. today had fun in sss =D

26/6/09

2009-06-26T22:43:00.007+08:00

突发的领悟... 来自于不久前的灵感以及最近好友的动力...

恐惧由了解产生。知道它的危险性、明白它对于自己的威胁，所以才会产生惧怕的心理。例如人会怕野兽，是因为我们知道野兽会攻击我们，甚至置我们于死地，所以我们害怕，害怕自己的生有危险。若换个方式想，如果我们不知道野兽会咬人，是不是就不会怕它们了？正如“初生之犊不怕虎”，小孩喜欢乱闯，甚至爬到高处也不曾怯步，因为他不知道只要不小心从高处摔下来，自己就会痛、会受伤。所以，恐惧由了解产生可不是无稽之谈。既然了解恐惧所在，那战胜它就不是天方夜谭。去深深体验，才能克服它，往前跨一步。

写这段话，除了纯属无聊，也是想借此提醒自己，不要害怕自己的恐惧，要努力克服，顺便也希望能为启发我的那位好友带来一些鼓励及毅力。=D

21/6/09

2009-06-21T21:43:00.006+08:00

thurs i went out with seniors for dinner... weichen zena janice and delfina.. we went to dhoby ghaut fish&co... chatted alot then ate... weird thing to note is that there's alot of birthday babies that day.. wonder if it's the date or maybe they chose to go to fish&co.. anyway.. dinner was nice... then we went to the park nearby to take photos.. super dumb.. haha... the people at the nearby restaurant were all looking our way... haha.. but we took some funny pictures... that day was fun cause got to catch up with the seniors.. a pity not all of them came... (other pics are in my photo album)

yesterday went out shopping with mum and my sisters.. haha... cause MIRACULOUSLY ALL (except my eldest sis) were at home.. so we decided to go out... went to jurong point... didnt manage to buy any clothes... my 2nd sis and i only manage to but a new walkman... the sony one.. super cool.. mine's black hers white... haha... when i put it on.. my hair totally cover it.. moreover it's black so totally cant see me wearing anything... haha... but it's SUPER EXPENSIVE.. so i'm quite broke now... haha...

the most importantly thing is... IT'S THE LAST WEEK OF HOLIDAY AND I HAVENT EVEN STARTED STUDYING FOR MY COMMON TEST!!!! AND I HAVENT COMPLETED MY HOMEWORK EITHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!! PEISHAN IS A BIG SLACKER!!! HOW????!!!!! haizz... thing is.. i'm planning to bury myself tmr in the library... hope i really do work tmr... haizz.. STUPID PEISHAN!!! STOP SLACKING AND START STUDYING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

13/6/09

2009-06-13T19:49:00.006+08:00

TIRING DAY!!!! OMG!!! haha.. yesterday i went for lunch with des and paul at causeway breeks.. the joker fai was absent because she's still in thailand.. so we had a 3-que-1 gathering.... anyway.. ususal.. chatted.. joked and teased each other.. then we went back to sports school.. for fun... wanted to see some teachers... but sadly none of them was in... haizz... went to boarding side and toured around.. lots of new changes.. fenced up area.. blocked access... new chill out area etc.... wow.. big difference since we left....

haha.. after that i went to meet daddy and his friends at sp and wait for huilin.. his 21st birthday yesterday.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! HOPE YOU LIKE THE PRESENT!!! =D he booked chalet at nsrcc... so we went there together.. huilin and drey went too... haha... daddy's friends and relatives were there as well... we ate... then went bowling.. then daddy was SUPER drunk and his friends had to carry him up and 'put him to sleep'.... he slept in the toilet the whole night anyway... drey and lin played mahjong with daddy's friends and uncle... then after that we played the circle of death aka drinking game... diferent version though.. slightly... played 2 rounds in total.. at first i was drinking plain water but it got me too bloated so i changed to alcholic drink.. seriously it doesnt taste nice.. and both rounds i got the forfeit of drinking the centre cup.. which they crazily added different types of alcohol, coke, sprite etc... tastes awful... and seriously... cannot drink mix alcohol cause after that today morning i felt so miserable... feel disgusted but cant vomit... yuck.... the game was SUPER funy.. because hidiel and ks keep drinking for breaking the rules set... hahahhaha... so funny... we played indian poker for a while too.. and in the end... everyone had to rush for toilet.... then today morning when daddy was FINALLY sober and awake.. we played another game... drew cards and the person who gets K can demand 2 (sometimes more) numbers to do a forfeit... and the people who hold these numer cards have to follow whatever the K says... we played very crazy stuff... I AM SERIOUS... the forfeit is super disgusting things... i shall not pen them now to remind myself of how disgusting they were.. anyway... drey and another guy sebastian very you3 yuan2.... keep getting called together haha.... it was really fun.... the chalet... but tiring as well... got to know very funny and intersting people =D... ks, hidiel, sebastian, yongxian and yenn... =D

6/6/09

2009-06-06T11:59:00.001+08:00

AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 1ST WEEK OF JUNE HOLIDAY JUST PASSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND I HAVEN'T TOUCH ANY HOMEWORK NOR HAVE I REVISED FOR THE COMMON TEST THAT IS RIGHT AFTER THE HOLIDAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'M SO DEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haiz.... i'm such a slacker.. how.... sianz... beyond cure... how how how.... peishan must be hardworking.... haiz...

30/5/09

2009-05-30T18:42:00.002+08:00

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24/5/09

2009-05-24T00:03:00.002+08:00

just came back not long ago.. today was acad gathering... organised by huimin... haha... she very blur.. everytime she message us the venue was different... she meant to meet at city hall station but she typed marina bay station.. then the next time she typed marina square control station.. so in the end people like kokhong really went to wait at marina bay... haha.. anyway.. we went to marina square for k dinner... buffet and k box throughout the 4 hours.. seniors and us.. almost all came.. except for chuanen huilin delfina...even zhaiyu also joined us (he said he missed us so he came despite his fever haha).... everyone went crazy in the room... shouting screaming singing laughing playing... so fun today haha.. this is my 1st time at k box anyway.. 1st time singing as well.. huimin and i sand an1 jing4.. haha.. two yin1 chi1 singing... and i realised many of us are.. except for kokhong and janice who sang really well (wonder if kokhong was trained by lin after many times to k box haha).. huiru was good too... yusiang was surprisingly good as well... the rest of us all anyhow de.. haha.. anyway today took alot of pics... waiting for weichen to send me.. really fun today... sadly cause tmr i have cip i cant join them at kokhong house.... oh tmr is my 1st attempt at street sakes.. hope evrything turns out well... hmm.. recently tried alot of 1st's..

20/5/09

2009-05-20T23:46:00.000+08:00

nothing better to do so i changed my blogskin... actually to rephrase ACCURATELY.. i have ALOT of things to do.. but they are all serious work which i have ABSOLUTELY no mood to tackle them.. so i have "nothing" to do.. decided to change my skin.. this one is d gray man... haha allen walker is my favourite =D.. anyway its simple and nice... these few days EXTREMELY tired.. cause helping out as student liason officers for event in our school.. alot of unhappiness and frustration which i shall not mention now.. probably will burst it all out after this week when the whole event ends.. super tired now.. sleep.. oyasumi . . . . .

12/5/09

2009-05-12T23:08:00.005+08:00

OMG!!!! I AM SO HAPPY!!!! YAY!!! hahahahahahahhahahahaha.... oops! seriuosly... I FINALLY GOT MY OWN DESKTOP!!!! hahahahaha... my uncle gave my cousin's one to me after getting consent and bought a new one for him.... omg.. seriously... cause on sunday we went over for mothers' day celebration then i was asking about computer stuff... mentioned that i plan to buy one for myself.. then my uncle immediately say unplug the current one and bring it home.. at first i thought he was joking (like he always do) but today he just called me and asked me to go over and help carry the computer home... !!!! and i found out this cpu i am receiving was just sent for repair and upgrading.. spent like $500++... then the computer set is assembled by my cousin for his game-playing... so it has high speed and resolution.... hahahahahahah.... OMG!!!! I GOT A SUPER GOOD COMPUTER SET!!!! (hp printer included as well)

9/5/09

2009-05-09T11:51:00.002+08:00

I FAILED MY CHEM QUIZ AGAIN!!!! ARGH~~~ haha... seriously.. i havent pass any chem before.. this time 4.5/10.. got improvement la.. not bad le... haha.... anyway.. yesterday njtt girls came to my house to stay over.. cause bidding farewell to seniors who officially will start their journey in hell soon... in preparation to 'a' levels of course... haha.. so we decided to have a stay over to play and relax... everyone came except for huiting.. so sad... cause she cant make it =(... anyway they came to my house then we slack first while waiting for meichi to come.... meichi who is the only one that have been to my house before GOT LOST!!!! =.= she seriously lost her way... she walked quite far away from my house.. then when i direct her.. she even walked past my flat and went up to the one opposite =.=|||... haha.. then we watched the rented movie "horton".. and i realised i watched it before.. with daddy... haha... yangzi cant stay over so she left half way through teh movie.. then we played MONOPOLY!!! YAY!!! haha... SUPER LONG never play so have this sudden excitement... haha... jingjing never play before (deprived childhood) but she had beginner's luck.. she's the only one that keeps earning alot of money... cause she bought the good lands i guess.. meichi most unlucky at first.. 2 lands and keep ending up in prison... haha... we played for like quite long... from i think 12am to 2am plus... then we off the lights and chatted... meichi and jingjing fell asleep almost immediately.. jingjing was already sleeping when playing monopoly... then the rest of us chatted and i fell asleep... then krist.. peiqi and shibin chatted all the way until 5+ then sleep... today morning shibin and meichi left before the rest.. then i brought the rest down for breakfast.. we ate PAPER PRATA!!! haha. super full now... and i very lazy so decided to slack XP

1/5/09

2009-05-01T23:45:00.020+08:00

just came back and bathed... today is a LONG day.. stayed at east coast almost the entire day cause evening have team celebratory dinner there.. so went there at noon to meet krist first.. suppose to finish up the cip proposal but in the end didnt.. cause we dont know what to write... she is doing it right now i hope.. oops! anyway.. after that we went to roller blade.. OMG! it's been 6 years since i last touched it.. haha... krist brought a pair of blades for me... super nice.. according to her.. its of speed 8.. so its very fast.. can skate quite effortlessly... haha... at first cant quite get used to it.. very jerky and i keep tripping.. but towards the end quite stable le and i could even brake using the brake (at first i cant cause i will get dragged along)... wanted to learn krist way of braking but didnt get to... then shibin they all came... we all akte together... meichi and jingjing know how to.. but the 3 seniors shibin peiqi and yangzi dont... haha.. so we taught them... they were all very good.. managed to learn it in the 2 hours.. though not very good but at least they can skate steadily... just that peiqi fell more than 10 times throughout... 6+pm had dinner at jumbo seafood restaurant.. the guys came.. coach and teachers-in-charge came too.. ate until very full.. then guys and girls took a stroll before we separated and went home... took quite some pictures today...

P.S. tmr is seniors' physics SPA so ALL THE BEST to them!!! and i created an album for NJTT'09!! do take a look for all the photos

25/4/09

2009-04-25T01:52:00.004+08:00

幸福的瞬间

当秋天　再来的时候　
你要我　笑着去爱去拥有
就算是　再短暂的温柔　
能重逢　这仁慈已足够
可知道　有些事有些人　
停留在　发生的那天不肯走
看时光的残酷　舍不得被遗忘　
这命运我很满足　有你陪伴的幸福
为你打开时间的锁　让爱自由不被它束缚
是哭过也挣扎过心让痛辗过
等那一天落叶静静飘眼前　已不再伤悲
永恆终於相信了幸福的瞬间
为你打开时间的锁让爱自由不被它束缚
每一秒都不后悔　我陪你体会
过去未来轻轻重叠　请原谅甜甜的眼泪
感谢今生与你在　幸福的瞬间　
依偎

“只要用力呼吸，就能看见奇迹” --《薰衣草》

P.S. i FINALLY loaded up the award's night pics. do check it up =D

24/4/09

2009-04-24T19:52:00.004+08:00

HAHA I FAILED MY CHEM 1ST QUIZ!! oops.. haha... seriously.. i failed it.. 4/15 .... pathetic score.. then today i took my 2nd chem quiz.. bound to fail again... sianz... haizz.. then bio lecture test today also... wont fail.. but nothing good either.. haha.. blanks here and there... zzz... what am i doing??? haha... SOOOOOOOOOOO SLACK! actually i am lagging behind for chem and bio cause previously missed too many classes.. then also because very difficult... cant seem to catch up.. but apparently.. despite the crisis.. I AM STILL SLACKING!!!! haizzz.. anyway.. yesterday i went to watch the finals for 'a' division team finals... and surprisingly.. RJ won both guys and girls champion!! OMG!! i dont know how it happened.. seriously.. cause when i reached they were half way throug the game... HC team guys very strong (as of what i know) so i have no idea how they lost... girls HC at advantage over RJ... but cause play until 2-2 then last match janice vs wanling.. so most of us thought it was a goner for RJ.. but janice displayed marvelous spirit.. she was super shuai4.. haha.. she played every single ball so well i never seen it before... seriously.. that game she truly displayed her fighting spirit.. got da4 jiang4 zhi1 feng1... haha.. so proud of my senior.... and of course.. in the end she managed to win 3-0... haha.. wish one day i'd be like her.. performing under stress....

17/4/09

2009-04-17T20:43:00.002+08:00

haha.. VERY LONG never update again.. well cause nothing much to blog... life as usual.. going to school... mugging as hard as i can (though i still slack a lot).. training and competition.... thats about it.. only thing is my table tennis is officially over for the time being... cause no more competition (except inter-constituency)... so no more training as well... maybe once in the blue moon... which is why i have been considering joining a 2nd cca... wanted to join archery cause i have always been interested in it.. but not too sure yet cause i heard their training is outside school.. so have to travel. then i havent checked what is their program like too.. so currently keeping in view... as for studies.. I AM TRYING VERY HARD TO CATCH UP!!! cause of competition and stuffs.. been missing alot of class... haizz.. sianz... havent even gotten the hang of it now lagging behind.. then struggling to catch up T.T... anyways... shall not crap anymore cause still have to rush my PI out by tonight and submit in... HAIZ

3/4/09

2009-04-03T22:40:00.007+08:00

I SUCKS!!! MY TABLE TENNIS SUCKS!!! ARGH!!!! SIANZ!!!! CRIES!!!! haiz.... today nj crucial match against tpjc fighting for 2nd place to proceed to next round of the 'a' division games.... everyone fought hard.. krist even manage to win after losing by 0-2... she pulled it through... then when my turn in the last singles.. I MESSED IT UP. like always... my table tennis like stagnant.. i've never manage to break through that barrier.. so sick of myself... train for so long in the end at crucial moment still cant make it... lost 2-3 and caused team nj girls to be knocked out T.T ... sianz... haiz... anyway... after that the girls team went to eat (as a form of lightening the spirit i guess).. joined by 3 J1 guys... haha.. they all super shy... then jingjing keep disturbing them... then use a harsh tone to 'force' them to join us for the meal... so funny... we went to junction 8 and ate ajisen... very nice haha... after that we went to walk around before leaving... quite nice.. really cheered up and stop pondering over that disastrous game i played.... the guys were funny too... interesting... haha... think we shall bond with them more often since still have to hang out with each other for another one and half year...

P.S saw daddy at J8 (to be exact he spotted me and gave me a fright =.=)

2/4/09

2009-04-02T22:32:00.002+08:00

just came back from SPORTS SCHOOL 5TH ANNIVERSARY CELEBRATIONS AND AWARDS' NIGHT!!!! haha so happy... looked forward to today haha.. go back see teachers friends etc... formal event as usual so have to dress formally.. i wore white top and black pants.. typical me.. haha... lin and fai wore pink dresses.. typical as well.. the only surprise was drey.. CAUSE SHE WORE A BLACK DRESS!!! looks very nice.. really... but super short haha... quite glad i made time to go back... the performances were of good standard.. more importantly... i saw many friends and 'old' seniors... quite a lot were there... happy haha =D.... took a lot of pictures as well... but less compared to previous years.. cause a bit rush i guess... managed to take with those that i want to take with.. but missed out some.. like i didnt manage to see any teachers except for mr lau.. sadz... i didnt take individual photos with acad guys and juniors as well... and oh! didnt take with paul too CAUSE HE DISAPPEARED!! zzz. anyway the pics should be up this weekend for those who wants to look at it XP

29/3.09

2009-03-29T14:50:00.002+08:00

back to my boring life again.. school starts again sianz.. workload piling up again sianz.. busy and packed schedule again sianz... haizz.. and project work has officially started.. so the already packed schedule will be even more packed.. haiz.. sianz... now i am struggling to come out with my 1st prelimary idea write-up that has to be handed in on the coming tues.. i have no idea of what to do.. havent even decide which task to choose let alone come up with the example.. zzzzz.... then this coming week inter-jc competition starts.. so i will be even more busy... will be missing lessons and stuffs... then trying to complete the neverending work... haiz... really dying soon... zzz

20/3/09

2009-03-20T22:01:00.015+08:00

today morning training again =.= ... only krist me and shibin.. sianz.. super stressed... haizz.. a lot of homework havent finish... at first thought i had enough time... cause i thought sat and sun i am free the whole day so can do homework.. but i realised both days I AM NOT FREE!!! now i am super stressed out.. haiz... nvm... talk about something happy.. today afternoon went out with fai des and paul.. as usual paul is late.. SUPER LATE.... but since he backed up with a valid reason we shall forgive him.. we ate at ri4 ben3 chun1 at yio chu kang... buffet... haha... i think we sat there like nearly 2 hours just eating and chatting... ate like mad... haha... we chatted a lot... about ouw new lives.. then i keep arrowing paul.. haha.. FINALLY after 4 years torture from paul now is my turn... haha.. cause of his new "secret" whatever he say i kept linking it to that and suan him... HAHA... des also.. paul and i suan him quite a bit as well.. had a lot of fun.. seriously... though just a simple meal and chatting.. really worth the time.. all of us made the time out and forgo other stuff... so nice to see that our friendship is still as bonded as before.. haha.. anyway after the meal paul had to rush for bowling so the remaining 3 of us went to catch a movie.. watched mall cop.. super stupid and funny haha... then i met my 2nd sis to buy some things that we need in our room... OH! our room is done actually.. ok i shall stop crapping and GO BACK TO MY HOMEWORK!!! ARGH!!

new room

19/3/09

2009-03-19T10:17:00.009+08:00

came back yesterday from the tt camp.. hmmm how should i say... overall it was fun i guess... and did help in bonding... but with the J2 guys not the J1... games that are supposed to be fun didnt turn out to be as fun but those that arent turned out fun... 1st day we had self training.. then bonding games start... played whacko 1st... super funny... cause they sabotage a few of them then their reaction were super funny.. then we played captain's ball.. not very fun cause the guys dont pass the balls to us.. they passed to senior girls though so i guess it's because they are still not familiar with us... then we played captain's ball against soccer team... girls lost quite miserably XP.. guys had a good fight.. think it was a draw... then we played water bombs.. not as fun.. probably because no aim so just pointlesly bombing each other.. bathed then start our mugging session... then BIG THING happened! meichi lost her hp... cause we were moving classroom so she forgot to take her charging hp... when she realised she went back but it was gone.. and all this happened within 10mins.. then super chaotic.. we searched places.. then she called her parents and suspended her line.. after quite some time then we decided to go for dinner first... on the way and during the meal the J2 guys keep joking... can feel that they are trying to cheer meichi up.. then when we went back police came... then lots of questioning and waiting... and in the end the police came back with meichi's hp! they said it was stolen... by someone that we didnt think would do it... haizz.. but good thing is it ended with a happy ending.. then guys watched horror movie bloody mary.. i had to tag along... but i didnt watch cause i fell asleep.. it was like nearly midnight... i was woken up later by their laughter.. and i found out from krist that the show wasnt scary at all.. went to sleep after that but was SUPER COLD! nobody slept well. keep waking up every now and then.. 2nd day started with the official training.. everyone was super tired.. after that we just rest ther... bathed and went grocery shopping.. for bbq at night.. bought back the things then we marinate the chicken.. the J1 guys poke the sausages... J2 guys start the fire.. bbq went on quite smoothly.. the food was good.. then we took group photo and ended the camp... i took some random pics during the camp..

15/3/09

2009-03-15T20:39:00.006+08:00

wake up early in the morning today.. go back malaysia cause have to accompany my 2nd sis go buy her contacts.. also to shop for some table accessories.. but in the end never buy any.. cause cant find XP.. spent most of the time with my cousin shopping.. my sis and cousin both bought some clothes.. haha... then we went for lunch at where my cousin worked part time at.. super nice the place.. as in the food is delicious.. then staffs are friendly and service was good.. they even sheltered us (with umbrella) to our car when it rained.. seriously.. good service.. i like that place... will go there again.. then my sis and i went to city square.. at first want to check out if there is movie for us to watch.. but there isnt... so on our way out.. we saw this group of people wearing gothic and lolitta clothes.. one big group.. super cool.. quite nice too.. then everyone was staring at them.. haha.. my sis and i approach them for photo... then ppl around us followed and started taking their photos.. then the whole thing looks like some pop star arriving.. haha... sadly we didnt manage to take single photo.. only group one... anyway i'm sick now.. running fever then quite dizzy.. cause yesterday while walking to causeway point it rained heavily suddenly... i cant turn back so had to continue walking.. then was TOTALLY drenched.. so i walked into caueway dripping water.. super cold.. after i bought my things then went back home.. was too tired and also because of the nice weather i just flopped into the sofa and slept... so in the end now i am sick =.= serves me right i guess..

P.S. pics that i took with the group

14/7/09

2009-03-14T17:13:00.006+08:00

HOLIDAYS!! YAY!!! haha... finally break period.. but technically.. school holidays = revision + loads of homework + catching up.. so my hols equal to no hols.. sianz... school pass per normal.. stressful... spending practically all the free time trying to finish up my tutorials etc.. training the same.. nothing interesting.. just go there play then go back.. i totally agree with krist.. quite pointles.. cause training without an aim or a plan is as god as wasting time... quality is the key not quantity.. haiz.. anyway my sister's and my room IS DONE!!! yay!! the furniture is in.. just that we havent pack out stuff in... hehehehehhehehehe.. so happy.. on tuesdays the ikea ppl came to deliver and assemble the furniture for us.. so fun... moving in very soon haha.. and oh! PW GRP IS OUT!! i am quite lucky.. cause i am grouped with ppl that i know.. sadly not with krist.. but at least with gloria and scott that i at least are close with... the other 2 menbers are shairah and jiayu who i am not familiar with YET... hope that we can successfully complete our pw with great score =D.. next week tues and wed table tennis team having camp in school.. looking forward to it.. cause it'as like the 1st bonding sesion we have.. hope everyone can get better at the camp so we wont be so hostile towards each other =D

P.S pics of my sister's and my room (empty currently)

7/3/09

2009-03-07T18:24:00.002+08:00

pei shan is dying T.T.. anybody want to save me??? T.T so stress... a lot of work to do.. that's still ok.. the worse thing is I DONT KNOW HOW TO DO THEM!!!!! ARGH!!!! *BANG WALL* sobx.. i stare at the papers and just dont know what to do.... then i feel so irritated and frustrated.. sianz... hiaz... anyway today training caoch suddenly ask us to play mixed doubles... everybody played together... shen1 jiang4... then dont know it's my luck or misfortune.. i was assigned to zhongxi... so scary... he like dont like to play with me like that.... but 2nd game onwards better.. at least we communicated.. then while playing reminds me of cody.. haha.. cause he was my first mixed doubles partner.. remembered when i first partnered him i was super scared.. cause he's like so scary as well.. dont talk... but after some time realise he is a very good partner.. cause he will teach me and tell me strategies he's using.. so i am more prepared.. then sometimes he will also say encouraging things.. haha.. nice partner.. anyway... krist was SUPER lucky... she got teamed up with gibb son (dont know if i spelled correctly)... it's like the best partner to get lor.. cause he's friendly then will communicate.. so i guess team up with him less stress (though krist still say very stress)... today i also went for my first tuition (dont know if i mentioned it but i am tutoring people now).. student is a sec 2 normal stream guy... through someone i know then got this part time.. teaching him math and chinese mainly... plus his cousin.. J1 chinese... not bad i think.. hmmm... but i must start brainstroming of ways to motivate him and push him.. target is to help him get into express stream.. these few days sill be super busy as well cause my house is having a BIG change.. as in we are taking down the current study room and refurnishing it into my 2nd sis and my room... so have to pack out all the stuff then tmr the workers will be here to remove the cardboards and tables.. then my sisters and i also going to ikea to hunt for new furniture... so busy and I HAVENT FINISH MY WORK!!! ARGH!!!!

27/2/09

2009-02-27T16:30:00.002+08:00

OMG! another week has passed and i am still surviving.. what a miracle... haha... we started lessons proper.. with the full timetable.. lectures and tutorials... sianz.. super stress... i always go in class empty minded then come out still empty minded... haiz... dont seem to understand much.. and i know i slack too much.. not working hard enought thats why.. never do my tutorials... then never revise what was taught either... i am so dead haiz... anyway i am the math rep and krist the class rep.. haha... quite alright.. at least we get involved.. hmm.. this week a lot of homework again.. zzz... sianz... now not in the mood.. tmr will tie myself down to study and clearing my homework... nothing much in school.. with kristine most of the time.. another classmate arjuna sometimes will be with us... i've talked to some of the classmates.. but didnt get to make any new friends yet.. still quite distant... oh! but good thing that all my tutors are nice and interesting people... at least class is less boring and easy to catch up... i think... tmr is njc road-run but i am not going XP... cause got matter to attend to... lastly... if nothing crops up.. next thurs njc tt girls going for friendly games at sports school!!! YAY!!! GOING BACK TO SSS AGAIN!!! hahahahahahhaha

21/2/09

2009-02-21T00:07:00.003+08:00

today i encountered something interesting... well at least it is for me.. and technically it is yesterday cause now it's already 12 midnight.. hahahahahahahahhaha.. i realised something interesting (sorry for my limitation in vocab and also for being too slow at realising i guess)... due to promises and privacy i shall not put in details.. just mentioned this so that today can be part of my memory as well... haha... all in all i am happy not just because i realised that something but because i did a good deed XP.. i helped someone in need hehe.... anyway let's just drop this... i just came back not long ago.. went to the art house to catch a drama performance.. as suggested by my gsc (general studies in chinese) tutor... had some trouble finding my way there and had to trouble the seniors to look for me (oops!).. thank you lao shi and yan ling... i'm not sure of the english title of the show.. but chinese is da4 dai3 ji4.. i know it doesn't make sense.. i tihnk it's suppose to be read in dialect.. and it means big thing... the show mainly pass sarcastic jokes on singapore's system.. like some policies and stuff.. very funny... and the drama box's actors were good.. they interacted a lot with the audience and makes everything lively.. although i dont understand some parts of it but i really enjoyed it.. and now i miss liu lao shi's show.. i liked all those i watched before.. lao3 jiu3, mao1 ren2, lei2 yu3, xx shen2 tong2 etc.. cant exactly rmb what else.. first 2 are the ones that left deep impressions... hope he has new show... would be glad to watch

18/2/09

2009-02-18T15:15:00.002+08:00

2 news.. 1 good 1 bad.. haiz.. good thing is.. I AM IN THE SAME CLASS AS KRIST!!!! haha.. so lucky.. just know it today.. should be of effect from next week i guess... happy haha.. bad news is... I CAN'T JOIN ANY H3 OR RESEARCH PROGRAMS!!! because my results sucks!!!! seriously.. now then i realise how much i have missed and will miss just because of my laziness and slackening during exam period... T.T my 'o' level results so bad that i am tied down totally... cant join all those extra programs that i have interest in... sianz... haizz... depressed.. demoralised... devastated.... T.T